Before you judge me, please hear me out. I am not trying to excuse my behavior, but explaining why I do it.
There is this married couple who live in the next apartment. They are in their mid-forties. I am 27, single and no girlfriend at the moment. The woman next door and I have gotten to be rather good friends. Some time back she confessed to me, due to putting on some weight, her husband now finds her unattractive and will no longer have sex with her. She is a bit chubby, but not in any way grossly overweight. She has very nice features and rather large breasts. To make a long story short, me being a typical horny 27 year old with no girlfriend and her husband not doing his duties, we started having an affair.
She comes to my apartment several nights a week while her husband is working a night shift and we enoy each other's company in my bedroom. I have never had sex with a married woman before, much less someone her age. To be quite honest, I find the sex very exciting and enjoyable as does she. She is every bit as good in bed as any woman my own age. In some cases, better than some I have been with. The sex is both regular and reliable, a plus for us both. She is loathe to be out in bars looking for men. We are very discreet about it and I don't even tell my closest friends what is going on between us. I am very nice to her and treat her with the utmost of respect. I in no way consider her a slut. She is only getting what she needs and her husband isn't supplying. I am also getting what I need. We both win. This may be morally wrong, but it isn't a perfect world. She now jokes she has become a cougar. I tell her, so what. We are both consenting adults and you are quite a talented cougar.
I made the mistake of not leaving the party with my girlfriends and staying alone with four boys. But I was so drunk I din't realice what could happed. They gave me another drink witch was probably loaded, took to a room and stripped me naked. I was so drunk I couldn't stop them from talking off my clothes. I got held over the edge of the bed while the took turns ******* me for hours. After it was all over they forced me to take a shower to was all the sperm off of me. They got my clothes back on and dropped me off in a nearby park. I got back to the college dorms and realiced I had no bra or panties under my clothes. I felt like a dirty whore that had just finished work. I felt like it all had been my fault and din't want anyone to know about. People would have just enjoyed themselves talking about it.
My 14 year old brother lifted my skirt in front of his friends. He thought I would soon forget it, but he was dead rong. I caught him with two of my girlfriends taking a shower alone at home. I picked the lock of bethroom and dragged him out naked in front of my girlfriends. I got them to hold him over the back of a sofa and spanked his butt ten times. Before letting him go I embarrssed him by turning him over so they could see his penis. He was so embarrassed because his penis got hard right in front of them. He never even dreamed of pulling my skirt up after that day.
I want to have an affair...I really do, but I just can't seem to bring myself to cross that line. I need sex. I want sex, my SO doesn't. I'm horny all the time. I watch porn nearly everyday and then masterbate. I want to **** another person. I have fantasies about having strangers come in and have their ways with me while I'm 'tied' up. I dream about 3somes and orgies...
"My boyfriend of almost 5 years admitted that he had sex with a prostitute when we had went on a break. I keep picturing him with her and it kills me. He's been throwing girls he's cheated on me with before in my face when we argue. It hurts to know that he feels like those girls were better than me. I dont know what to do we have a a child together and I feel so used and abused.
He manipulates me and confuses me because after he tells me how disgusting my body is and how loose my ***** is, he hugs me and tells me he loves me. '
He tells me I need counseling and Im crazy. Then he shushes me and hugs me and won't let me talk. I feel like I was normal and now I don't know who I am anymore. I do love him. I don't trust him though and I feel like he is trying to back me into a corner.
He even told me the other day that he knows how I am and just to pull the trigger. He would raise our daughter better if I wasnt around.
I think he wants me to kill myself and he is trying to convince me to do so.
I am so lost and confused and if the only person I have ever loved wants me dead maybe I should start to contemplate it.
Alone and Lost."
I was in the same relationship as you. My son is 2 1/2 and his father was the same way. I eventually left him but I was with him off and on for 6 years. I wish I could have that time back and that I didn't let him ruin my life. He became abusive emotionally and sometimes physically. please get out before you get hurt
I'm 21 and I have a 2 1/2 year old son. The guy that i am dating isn't the father. I have known him for about 6 1/2 years. We've been together in a realtionship on and off for about a year. I really love him but I get so mad at him sometimes. He lives at home with his parents, has no prior relationship experience (unless you count a few makeout/groping sessions that had no strings attached), doesn't pay rent or buy his own food and really has no responsibilities. He does work though. Sometimes I get really upest because he comes to my house and eats my food and doesn't realize that I am struggling to feed myself and my son as it is.
Once in awhile he will spend 2 or 3 days in a row with me but mostly I have to compete with his friends, his job, and his video games. I'm fine with him having a life but I would really like it if he included me more. He just lets his best friend push him around. Like today he was supposed to come over and spend time with me because he was with his friends yesterday. Well his best friend went to his house and woke him up at 1:30 and "kidnapped" him so that now I won't get to see him till saturday unless he comes over tomorrow night for a late night booty call. i live far away from my friends so no one wants to come hang out with me so I'm stuck home alone alot. I'm lonely and deppressed and don't know how much more I can take!
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