"My boyfriend of almost 5 years admitted that he had sex with a prostitute when we had went on a break. I keep picturing him with her and it kills me. He's been throwing girls he's cheated on me with before in my face when we argue. It hurts to know that he feels like those girls were better than me. I dont know what to do we have a a child together and I feel so used and abused.
He manipulates me and confuses me because after he tells me how disgusting my body is and how loose my ***** is, he hugs me and tells me he loves me. '
He tells me I need counseling and Im crazy. Then he shushes me and hugs me and won't let me talk. I feel like I was normal and now I don't know who I am anymore. I do love him. I don't trust him though and I feel like he is trying to back me into a corner.
He even told me the other day that he knows how I am and just to pull the trigger. He would raise our daughter better if I wasnt around.
I think he wants me to kill myself and he is trying to convince me to do so.
I am so lost and confused and if the only person I have ever loved wants me dead maybe I should start to contemplate it.
Alone and Lost."
I was in the same relationship as you. My son is 2 1/2 and his father was the same way. I eventually left him but I was with him off and on for 6 years. I wish I could have that time back and that I didn't let him ruin my life. He became abusive emotionally and sometimes physically. please get out before you get hurt
i have been cross dressing for 50 years, and i am still in the closet. i dress up every day while my wife is at work. just like right now i am fully dressed with breast form, wig, makeup, and all. my x wife found my pictures and my cloths, so i thought it was time for me to leave, but she said that i could dress as ofton as i wanted to if i stayed. it just got to the point where i could not stay. i am remarried and my nrw wife found my things and i had to get rid of every thing. she lets me wear panties, panty hose, and a night gown to bed every night. she also lets me dress as a girl for halloween. she told me this is the only time she wants to see me dressed as a girl. so now i hide everything and as soon as she gos to work i get all dressed up and spend the day as a girl. she also lets me wear panties and panty hose under my male cloths. she dose not know that most of my jeans are girls and i love the way they look and feel on me. i know that i will be cross dressing the rest of my life because girls cloths feels and looks so good on me. it makes me feel so feminine and this is what my cross dressing is all about.
My boyfriend of 5 years. Wants to move in together. I am not so sure. I think it will mess up our relationship. This man loves me unconditionally and would give me the world. Honestly I'm scared to move in with him. I don't know if we are ready to take this next step in our relationship. I have friends that have moved in together with their partners and their relationship our ruin. I really don't want this to ruin our relationship. He's really upset that I don't want to live together but I haven't told him my thoughts. What should I do. Please Help Me.
Reveng never works out for the best and is best avoided, here is what happened to me when I tried to get revenge on somebody I though split me and my g/f up. I should have accpeted it was voer and put my energy into moving on.
I work as a cab drive in Bristol and recently split up with a woman I'd been seeing for over a year. She had seperated from her ex, but not gone through with the divorce though he'd been a way for a while.
But, recently, he returned to Bristol and she started to contact him, claiming they had issues to sort and I reacted in the wrong way and our relationship was under strain and we seperated. I always blamed him for this so one Saturday night he got into my cab and I saw this as a perfect chance to get even.
I started having a go at him and he tried to calm the situation down but this wound me up even more so I pulled over in a deserted part of the country and told him to get the **** out of my cab and he did saying to take it easy.
I always carry a baseball bat for protection in the cab and started waving that around in his face making threats. He accussed me of acting like a lunatic so I wasn't thinking straight and when he told me he was going to see his estragned wife I hit the roof and told him he wasn't. He asked me how I was going to stop him and I told him to strip off. I was going to leave him there naked and drive off with his togs. I joked he could leave two things on, his socks. Anyway, he told me there was somebody coming up behind me and I said I wasn't going to fall for that one but he looked so believable. I turned round for a second and said "bull****, there's nobody there" and turned back. That was long enough, because he launched a punch at me and alhtough I culd see it coming there was nothing I could do. I was knocked clean out and he left me in the back of the cab. But he'd done to me what I threatened to do to him and stripped me and ran off with my kit. All I had was a pair of old flip-flops I found in the boot to drive home with.
Lucky it was late at night and I was only 6 miles from home as there was no one to see me.
Only person that saw was a fat lorry driver who thought it was hilarious, but how would he have felt in my position?
My heart was broken almost a year a go. We loved each other and we both knew it. I was to stupid to confes it to her because I thought everyhting was already perfect for me. We slowly sliped apart, and she ending up going out with another guy. Once that happened I realised how stupid I was. Words can not describe how much I wanted her.
Id give anything to go back in time and tell her "i love u" when I should have. I decided to write all this crap to help me get out the feelings that have been bottled up inside me, some of it I got from songs that remind me of her, but most I made up, its not ment to rhym and it shouldnt make much sence.
I till recall the taste of your tears
the sound of your voice was music to my ears
the feeling of us toutching was like noting else in the world
but now being near you almost brings me to tears
Not a day goes by when I dont think of what could have been
soon im leaving for a life of defending what we should have had
Ill confess im still in love with you, days befor I leave
untill then im gona continue to grieve
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
flying through my head untill I dont want to sleep anymore
There are bullet holes where my love used to be, now there is voilence in my heart
I have chosen a live of ending lives to save lives now that there is voilence in my heart
But this is where I belong, I enjoy voilence in my heart
We shared the same feelings for each other befor there was voilence in my heart
Your now just a reminder of who we could have been
You always were the one to show me how
then, I didnt dare do the things I do now
but now its to late, and ive been broken
I hope one day you will help me repair
Ill always regret not telling you how I felt on 14 2
it would have been amazing knowing knowing love was in the air
it will stick with me for ever
I wanted somthing, but now its likley I will never have.
but there will always be a place for you, anywhere, anytime, ill be there
Good bye
You'll alwys be the girlfriend I never had
My wife has been working in a call center for the past 2 years and recently she got a new boss. When she works the late shift she doesn't finish until midnight so sometimes he drives her home.
Even though I think it is nice of him to drive her home specially if it is raining or something I am kinda worried because sometimes they spend a long time talking in his car while they are parked in our driveway. He is black and she in white. Am I just too suspicious or do you think that there's something going on?
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