I'm a girl 20 years old in my first year of college. It was also the first time I was on my own away from home and sharing an apartment with another girl close to college. I was offered a ride home by some guys that I thought were college students and made the mistake of getting into the van with them. We were still inside campus grounds and din't see anything rong with it. Their mood changed when I told them they were going in the rong direction. "Don't worry we'll drop you off latter" they told me. I wanted to get off but was to scared to say it and I had no choice but to belief in them. I became conviced that something was rong, when they drove up the drive way of a house and strait into the garage. "It's just a little sex tape" and all ready had a video camara set up. I couldn't see any other way to come out unharmed and conviced myself to do what they wanted. It was a mixture of feeling scared and embarrassed, to get undress in front of a camara and four guys drewling over you. They made me pouse in various humiliating position and to be sexy about it. I was forced to masturbate and look like I was enjoying it. The rest of the four hour it took to get it done, was some drty sceens with two of them naked and masked to hide the faces. One performed oral sex on me while I sucked the other ones dick and pretend to be enjoying it. In the end I din't get raped because they never forced their penuses inside me. They just foundled me and ejaculated on the floor. I was droped off a corner away from home and never knew how the tape was going to be used for, but lucky of cuming out of it unharmed.
I met this online guy "Joe" he lives in Africa. He really wants a relationship with me. But Im just playimg because I can. I have no feelings for him at all."Joe" wants to move to the states to be with me. Actually I'm in love with my boyfriend of 5 yrs. Now my boyfriend wants to get married but I think we are to young Im 20 he's 19. We met in school and have mostly been together ever since. Hes knows about in online guy. Actually he thinks its funny. Me and my boyfriend haven't had sex yet because I wants to be married first. Now online guy and I video chat all the time. This guy makes my p**** so wet that i cum while Im talking to him. Now Im thinking about dumping online gut tommorrow because he pissed me off.
I have lied my whole life to get what I want, whether it has been for money, someone to love me, have people like me or get attention. I have even taken money from a 6 year old because I thought I needed it and was to lazy to ask for it. I have only thought about myself. I gave up my daughter because it did not fit into my lifestyle that I wanted to have. I have lied to the man who has done nothing but love me for who he thought I was and he was here for me. I have even had my son lie for me just so I would not have to deal with reality of my selfishness. I have lied to for so long that I wonder if I even know who I really am.I have lived in a dream world for so long I wonder what reality even is. I want to be a better person. I do not want to be selfish anymore. I want forgiveness, I want to be able to look in the mirror and like the person I see. I am so ashamed of everything in my life. I have caused so much pain and distrust, I do not where to start.
When I was 19 I was lazy... I just went to school and played on the computer. Well there's this game called Graffiti on yahoo where you can play live with other players. I was addicted! After a while I was a regular and knowing all the regulars. I would sign in with the avatar of a neutral fish, (I just thought it was koo)but no-one knew my sex.
There were way more females then males everyday so One day I decided I would create my profile and just have fun with it. Well on myspace I just added this hott guy so I stole his pics & posted them as my own, and named myself Money Mike (it was lame) but all these girls were diggin it! I thought it was funny so I continued everyday as $$ Mike.
Soon, I was talking to these girls on Yahoo IM. I had to alter my email/IM to fit the role of $$ Mike. I flirted with them, exchanged pic's, made them feel special and wanted! It was fun until it got serious...
The main girl I talked to eVeRyDaY was this really beautiful older (bout 7yrs older then me) white woman. Her name was...{{not important}}... but she was so easy to talk to, funny, smart, sexy (not gay/neither am I).
I was me but I wasn't! Everything we talked about was me, life-stlye, problems with my family... but my only lie was I was NOT a MaLe! but that's a huge LiE! I really feel like I feel n loVe with this woman... kinda weird but I did! More like friend loVe but kinda attracted to her 2, but only if I were a guy (prob doesn't make sense).
Anyway, man that feels sooooo much better!
I completely stop talking to her cause she was talkin bout meeting and talking on the phone... I figured I should just stop when I did cause the she woulda had 2 find out the truth eventually... & she woulda been pissed!!! and sad...
So If ur reading this butta, I just want you to know I'm truly sorry! I deceived you and that was wrong! I pray that your life is the best life ever!!! more then u could ever wish for, and that u find someone that truly cares and loves 4 u cause u deserve it!
I would like to know how many girls are out there that have made the mistake of letting someone move in with you and your man and ending up having your man and your girlfriend get it on?? I know of several times this has happened including to me. I would just like to know how many more have made that same mistake and how long is it going to continue on........before people learn... I did the hard way.....
This is really hard 2 say but I have to tell my story and maybe you guys can somehow guide me. I've been married for over 3 years now I have a beautiful baby girl with my husband...she is 6 months old. Thing is me and my husband have been cheating on one another since we've been dating. He started cheating on me the 2nd month of our relationship...I didn't know then...6 months into him being overseas I started to cheat on him...while he was cheating on me...but we both didnt know about one anothers secret lives. We got married a year later and he was still cheating on me after we got married. We got back together after I found out about him messing around while we were married. He deployed again like 2 years later...and I cheated on him. Then when he came back I got pregnant. Ever since then we've been good....but why are we married and we've cheated?...I mean I love my husband and he loves me...so why have we done this to one another and what should we do?
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