Before you judge me, please hear me out. I am not trying to excuse my behavior, but explaining why I do it.
There is this married couple who live in the next apartment. They are in their mid-forties. I am 27, single and no girlfriend at the moment. The woman next door and I have gotten to be rather good friends. Some time back she confessed to me, due to putting on some weight, her husband now finds her unattractive and will no longer have sex with her. She is a bit chubby, but not in any way grossly overweight. She has very nice features and rather large breasts. To make a long story short, me being a typical horny 27 year old with no girlfriend and her husband not doing his duties, we started having an affair.
She comes to my apartment several nights a week while her husband is working a night shift and we enoy each other's company in my bedroom. I have never had sex with a married woman before, much less someone her age. To be quite honest, I find the sex very exciting and enjoyable as does she. She is every bit as good in bed as any woman my own age. In some cases, better than some I have been with. The sex is both regular and reliable, a plus for us both. She is loathe to be out in bars looking for men. We are very discreet about it and I don't even tell my closest friends what is going on between us. I am very nice to her and treat her with the utmost of respect. I in no way consider her a slut. She is only getting what she needs and her husband isn't supplying. I am also getting what I need. We both win. This may be morally wrong, but it isn't a perfect world. She now jokes she has become a cougar. I tell her, so what. We are both consenting adults and you are quite a talented cougar.
My 14 year old brother lifted my skirt in front of his friends. He thought I would soon forget it, but he was dead rong. I caught him with two of my girlfriends taking a shower alone at home. I picked the lock of bethroom and dragged him out naked in front of my girlfriends. I got them to hold him over the back of a sofa and spanked his butt ten times. Before letting him go I embarrssed him by turning him over so they could see his penis. He was so embarrassed because his penis got hard right in front of them. He never even dreamed of pulling my skirt up after that day.
I want to have an affair...I really do, but I just can't seem to bring myself to cross that line. I need sex. I want sex, my SO doesn't. I'm horny all the time. I watch porn nearly everyday and then masterbate. I want to **** another person. I have fantasies about having strangers come in and have their ways with me while I'm 'tied' up. I dream about 3somes and orgies...
I guess I have come to the conclusion that maybe I am really in love with my boyfriend. Its someone I can be myself around, but I almost feel like we are just comfortable with eachother... Just like two friends. I honestly don't know if I can tell the difference, between being comfortable and my best friend and being in love. Is love just comfortable are the exciting stage?
Is it going to fall apart after we have heard all of eachothers stories? Is there a point when it's just time to end things because you don't understand how you feel or should you work through them and then decide?
I am so angry with you! I always imagined being married and so faithful, until the day I caught you cheating on me. I learned that this was not just a one time thing but it played over and over again.
The anger drove me into getting revenge. Taking care of the kids cooking and cleaning paying attention to you. I found my self making up excuses why I am late. And telling you I am going to my mother's or my girlfriend's house. These were all the same excuses you gave me. That's why I started going out with other men. I had sex with them and got my revenge. That's what runs through my mind when they are getting me getting undressed, or when I feel their hands on my body and their manhood inside me. I do things with them that I never did with you. I am their total slut and rock their world.
What once seemed so wrong has become so right for me...and you lie there on the couch watching TV have no idea what I'm doing.
I am a 21 year old college student. I have always been straight and i've been sexually active for 7 years, but recently i've found myself completely infatuated with a new friend. I know he's straight, but i think about what would happen if i told him how i feel all the time. He's cute, funny, plays guitar and has an amazing voice. But i can't help but feel like a pervert... he's 16. He doesn't even drive yet, but i'm so attracted to him it makes me sick. I want to be with him, but not only is he not gay, its illegal. i hate this.
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