yes i am tired of women who do not take the initiative to go up and talk t oguys they like. im tired of the women who say i want a good man but yet to tell you they also have to be attractive wich is an oxymoron they need to quit wearing rings on the ring finger if their single how are guys suposed to know where not mind readers women just need to grow up and quit acting like children who get what they want.
I am a 21 year old male named John and I want to say ...
AAAAGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!
(23:34:21) CHSBum4: done making me feel bad now?
(23:35:13) Scrovak: wut can i say, u totally crushed me
(23:35:27) CHSBum4: i didn't cheat on u!
(23:36:07) Scrovak: ok, b4 u knew it was friggin me u were tellin jake that if u had ur way he wudnt b single very long
(23:36:38) Scrovak: come on
(23:36:42) CHSBum4: i was freakin kidding me
(23:36:52) CHSBum4: damn
(23:36:55) CHSBum4: i love you
(23:37:02) CHSBum4: why can't u get that through ur head
(23:37:06) CHSBum4: im hurt and upset
(23:37:08) Scrovak: sure didnt seem that way
(23:37:12) CHSBum4: on the rebound if u would call it that
(23:37:15) Scrovak: hell u were teelin him dat to
(23:37:22) Scrovak: sigined "his baby gurl"
(23:37:33) Scrovak: find a rabound guy yet?
(23:37:37) CHSBum4: no
(23:37:41) CHSBum4: i decided not to
(23:37:52) CHSBum4: that i was gonna try to work things out with u
(23:38:25) Scrovak: and how bout when u were pissed at that one chick
(23:38:30) Scrovak: tellin her to leave maggie out
(23:38:48) Scrovak: and that her bf was jus waitin for u to break up with me so u cud go out with him
(23:38:57) Scrovak: how do u explain that one?
(23:39:16) CHSBum4: its troy i was telling her what he said.. and i would never date troy
(23:39:20) CHSBum4: i don't have feelings for him
(23:39:43) CHSBum4: why were u reading all my mail?
(23:40:14) Scrovak: cuz u were sayin shyt lyk dat and i didnt wanna believe it
(23:40:24) Scrovak: but then i saw it with my own eyes
(23:40:33) CHSBum4: i was trying to piss her off
(23:40:34) Scrovak: "i wish i cud make you all mine"
(23:40:35) CHSBum4: and it worked
(23:40:46) Scrovak: ?
(23:40:52) Scrovak: to jake
(23:40:59) CHSBum4: no to that girl
(23:41:01) CHSBum4: she said ****
(23:41:51) Scrovak: no, you said "i wish I could make you all mine"
(23:41:55) Scrovak: on one of jakes pictures
(23:42:03) CHSBum4: rebound hun
(23:42:34) Scrovak: IT WAS BEFORE YOU IMMED ME!!!!!!
(23:42:46) Scrovak: WHILE WE WERE STILL TOGETHER!!!
(23:42:53) Scrovak: DONT EVEN GIMME THAT BS
(23:43:00) CHSBum4: i knew i was breaking up with u hunny
(23:43:16) Scrovak: lol
(23:43:17) Scrovak: wow
(23:43:23) Scrovak: befor ei immed u about bein suspicious
(23:43:48) CHSBum4: u kind of seemed to forget about me
(23:43:49) Scrovak: so u din break up with me becaus eof it, then yd u break up with me, wanted to have a clean conscience bout sum guy in iowa?'
(23:44:01) CHSBum4: no
(23:44:15) Scrovak: i was working all day saturday and sunday and i had to go in today
(23:44:22) CHSBum4: cause i was tired of u not being around all the time.. cause u have to many girls that are friends
(23:45:35) Scrovak: in otherwords, ur makin up reasons, ur jealous of all the grls i have that are jus friends, how bout all the guys u kno who "jus wanna get in ur pants?"
(23:45:42) Scrovak: throw trains and all that shyt
(23:45:50) Scrovak: and all the jokes ud make bout cheatin
(23:46:01) Scrovak: that din make me at all uncomfortable?
(23:46:10) CHSBum4: im sorryb
(23:46:19) CHSBum4: but im not a slut so i wouldn't do them
(23:46:23) CHSBum4: i don't cheat
(23:46:28) Scrovak: jesus christ, now your just fishing, ur makin up excuses to make urself better
(23:46:35) CHSBum4: no
(23:47:36) Scrovak: well u make one reason earlier, a different reason 5 mins ago, a third after that
(23:47:40) CHSBum4: u know what.. just forget about us and me and stay out of my life cause obviously your not gonna give me another chance!
(23:47:43) Scrovak: thats wut its lookin lyk
(23:48:01) Scrovak: i have a 1 strike policy hun
(23:48:04) Scrovak: sorry
(23:48:07) CHSBum4: bye
(23:48:10) CHSBum4: i don't need u
(23:48:12) CHSBum4: or want u
(23:48:17) CHSBum4: hell i never loved u anyways
(23:48:27) Scrovak: ok
(23:48:30) Scrovak: well
(23:48:35) Scrovak: now that thats out of the way
(23:49:01) Scrovak: i loved you. i loved you alot, and im sorry that u cudnt feel the same way back, but hey, maybe thats why we didnt work out, eh?
(23:49:14) CHSBum4: u know i didn't mean
(23:49:15) CHSBum4: that
(23:49:22) CHSBum4: just give me one more chance
(23:49:30) CHSBum4: u can check my myspace everyday if u want
(23:49:34) CHSBum4: ill prove that i am loyal
(23:50:46) Scrovak: ok, now ur sayin stuff u dont mean, y wud u say dat? are u tryin to feel less guilty or upset or something?
(23:50:54) Scrovak: remember, YOU broke up with ME first
(23:51:02) Scrovak: then i showed u the evidence
(23:51:05) Scrovak: and u denied it
(23:51:06) CHSBum4: u didn't seem to mind
(23:51:11) CHSBum4: i didn't **** any guys
(23:51:14) CHSBum4: or kiss any guys
(23:51:23) Scrovak: yea, cuz i already had all the shyt u were sayin to other guys
(23:51:44) Scrovak: or rub up agasint their crotch or tease them?
(23:51:57) CHSBum4: no
(23:55:02) CHSBum4 logged out.
(00:05:47) Scrovak: then i messaged the grl saying "since we didnt ge t to finish that convo like adults, what i ws going to say was:
yea, ok, well anyway, it all comes down to this. you were talkin to other guys lyk u wanted to get with them, and told them so. lo and behold, one of them was me in disguise. you claim it's for rebound because you already knew you were breaking up with me. "cuz of all my friends that are girls" as opposed to ur guy friends who you tell me bout wantin to thro a train on you. After that, you break up with me after i ask u bout the guys in iowa, nicely, not accusative or anything. You broke up with me. I confronted you with the proof. You realized your screwed, and made up 3 other reasons to not want me, then tell me u never loved me, then com crawlin back beggin me to go out with you. Im sorry but no.
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"If you love something let it go and if it comes back it was meant to be"
and then the rest of the crap if it doesn't then it wasn't meant to be. That's one of the stupidest quotes I have ever heard. It's almost as bad as, "It's not you, it's me." It seems like everyone is trying to use that quote, "If you love me let me go." Why would you want to let something you love go? Because that means you truly love them and you would do anything for them? That's a load of crap because when they say that and you actually let them go.. you are basically saying, "Okay I love you so much I'm going to let you go so you can go look for someone better than me and if you find someone, then two thumbs way ******* up for you and if you don't then I'll be here waiting for you. I'll be your backup, your second choice, your tenth choice, your last resort, or whatever else you want to call it. That's bullshit. Whoever thought up that quote must have been really stupid. If they were stupid enough to let that other person go they either didn't love them as much as they thought or there was someone else they could just fall back on. When someone gives that quote the other person should just say, "I do love you, that's why I don't want to let you go because I don't want to lose you." That sounds to me like they care more than the other person. Am I right? Because the one that says, "Okay I'll let you go," it doesn't sound like they want to put up much of a fight for the one they love. It doesn't sound like they really care too much about losing the person they love.
Okay I think I'm done venting about this stupid quote now. If you have any comments or anything I'd like to hear them. Later
I am a 21 year old male named John Novak and I want to say ...
Ladies and gentlemen, to all who may read this, listen carefully, I have a message for you. Live life to it's fullest. I am not saying this as one of those old farts who never got a chance with that one girl or so on, I am saying this from someone concerned for the benefit of our generation. So often do we as a population overlook that which means so so much to us, in dire search of something. We don't know what at the time, but we know what it is as soon as we find it. Do you know what the problem with that is? None of us ever find it. And then, in the end, we have given up everything, and found nothing. What I am asking of all of you is a favor to me. Next time your at the ice cream shop on the corner, and your deciding between a chocolate or vanilla cone, get a swirl. Satisfy both your wants and desires. Realize how easy it is to make difficult decisions when you take not the easy way out, but instead take the path that feels best to you. Then, you won't lament having not gotten vanilla, or chocolate. Then, you're biggest concern will be when you are going back for more.
I have had friends in my time, but only a select few who have meant anything to me, and I think I am on the verge of losing that friend. Why? Because I was the dumbass who decided to date her friend. Now, since her friend and I are no longer together, I may lose her as well. You know what I did? I went for Vanilla. I Could've gotten swirl, been friends with both, dating neither, and been the happiest man alive because they are both wonderful ladies, and I miss them both very much.
Carpe Diem. Sieze the day. Take this seriously, not to mean get out there and do something you have been putting off for a while. I mean, litterally, grab the day by it's ******* balls, take those skydiving lessons you only dreamed about. Go on a road trip. Meet someone new. Go to a restaurant, and ask your waiter or waitress to have dinner with you. You will be happier having met a new friend, and they will be happier for having been offered a well deserved meal and break.
Think about it this way people. If I were to kill myself tonight, to blink myself out of existance so easily, with the flick of a wrist, how many people would come to my funeral? Think of your life that way. The number is equal to the number of lives you have touched in living your life. Don't be the kind of person whose family has to hire mourners, be the kind of person that people take entire days off of work to go to the funeral, run into old friends afterwards, and then, as the conversation drifts to you, the deceased, they start crying with joy and laughter at the fun they ad with you while you were alive, how the world is going to be missing someone great.
Ladies and gentlemen, I call upon you to kill yourselves. Not litterally, bt to kill your current mindset. Kill who you are. Then change, everyday, hold the door open for someone, give up that parking space, its ony an extra 20 feet, help a complete stranger pick up dropped things, make friends with someone young, so they have a good role model to look up to.
People, what I am saying to you is LIVE YOUR LIFE LIKE IT'S WORTH LIVING!!! Life is not a chore, it's a gift. Make the most of it. Cherish it. And then, Make it better for someone else. Make them cherish it.
I am killing myself, killing myself to be born anew.
How about you?
I finally realize that I can't stand you or anything you stand for. You are a scared small town little boy, and all you do is act like a f_ _ _ ing big shot. Always hanging out at J_ _ _'s four or five days of the week. You are a sorry alcoholic. You told me so many lies, and I believed you. I really believe that you have cheated on C_ _ _ _ _ more than with just me, and we did it for three years!!!!!!! In that time you lied to me, treated me mean, you used me just for sex, you are just an *******. Mean and weak is what you are, you and C_ _ _ _ _ deserve each other. If she is so dumb as to never do anything about what she knows you have been doing, then she is probably doing the same. All she wants you around for is your money. And she thinks she if
f_ _ _ _ g hot ****, so you guys are made for each other because you are both losers, pretenders, cheaters. I loved you, really loved you, and I was willing to change my life for you, and be with you. I could have made you bappy, I would have done anything for you. You knew what I had to offer, and you were just to afraid. You are one sorry MF! I have so much anger because of you.
I think this is a cool way to vent and get this off my chest and hope that in someway it will free me and help me move on. I have been married for 5 yrs, very happily but the previous relationship that i was in did a lot of personal damage i can't seam to let go of. In my previous relationship i was a virgin and and after some time of breaking me down, telling me what I wanted to hear, I finally gave in and dove into a dark abyss. I thought he loved me, and cared about me. I waited for the calls, or as I have learned to call them "booty calls" at 3:00a.m. when getting off work or being with someone else. geeze I was so Dumb. I wasted two years of my life waiting and wondering when i would hear from him, i never knew when he would call. We were having sex on night when his pager went off and he actually called the number back, it was a female and he decided to leave and come back later. Before he left asked him what i was to him. I can't remember the response but it left me feeling like a cheap whore only not getting paid. My self esteem was non exsistent, i felt there was no way anyone could love me. I held on for a while just going threw the motions when he would call. I finally left him for 4 mo and told him to get a life and I did not want to see him again. While i was gone i recieved countless letters telling he how much he loved me and wanted me to come back, he was changing and wanted to be with me more then anything, he knew what he had with me was good but when he couldn't have it he wanted it more. when I came back I tried to feel nothing for him but he was the typical bad boy all girls are sexually attracted to, piercings and tatoos, big turn on for me anyway. So we jumped right back into a relationship that was good for a month and it was back to wondering what the heck i was doing with him. I decided that this had to end, i would cry daily and i could not eat and i was a disaster. The day that I called to break up with him was the day that I also found out I was pregnant, there is a part of me that knows he wanted that to happen so i would stay with him. So i called told him I was pregnant. Long story short, we ended up placing our little girl for adoption 6 yrs ago on may 10. Not long after that i met my husband and we got married, i have two amazing children a boy and a girl. My problem is I keep having flash backs and memories that I can not get out of my head. I was able to talk to him several times during the pregnancy to vent and make him feel the pain that I went through and also the pain of giving a child away so she could have a mom and a dad who could give her a better life. I am just so confused why I can't just have thoses memories deleted or have them fade. I know that time heals all wounds but, I think it was because he was my first for everything, love,sex,intimacy...There is just still hurt there, that is rooted. It is not interfearing with my marriage in the least I am very open and tell him when I am having the episodes. i just want to vent in hope telling the story minus a lot of details would help.
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