I really despise Erik. He lies all the time. About anything & everything. You just can't believe what comes out of his mouth cause he could be lying.
Good old Prolificman is only good at lying. It's time he tosses those stupid lizard skin boots- he's never going to be a rock star. I doubt Taylor made ever existed except in his damaged little brain. ET has no real musical talent.
As for being thumper7ndahalf- only in his dreams. What a LIAR he is!
I HATE driving in Sunnyvale now- knowing he's there makes me sick.
Quite frankly, I want to break up with my boyfriend. Why? I want to be single. No other reason, other than I like the idea of being single. I am 19 and have been in a relationship for 8 months, which, in my opinion is 5 months too long. so what is my problem? i told my friends this, and they act as if i am scum. ok, a bit of an exagguration, but I have no desire, none what so ever, to "settle down" and be monogamous. A bit of me perhaps envies others for having this desire, but I feel more than two, three months with one guy is too much. I want children, perhaps, but not marriage. I just hate how this makes me a "bad" person. In reality, I want to get married, just to be someones wife, for a while, but I would get divorced within a year. Maybe this will change, but for now, I ask, is it so wrong to desire casual sex and short term relationships. Ideally, I want a boyfriend for a month, and a life of singledom for a few months, and I see nothing wrong with that... love, d
Ok. So David and I have been friends for like a year now, and we've decided to be more than just friends for a couple of months now. We hang out, kiss, cuddle and have sex. He's everything I look for in a guy, well, almost everything. He told me that he loves me, but I'm not too sure I believe that. I mean, I care about him, but I'm certain I'm not "inlove" with him and I don't think he loves me either. I don't he knows what love REALLY is. He told me his been inlove 6 times and he's only 20. Besides, I've lost interest in "love", I don't even know what that is anymore. idk...I mean...he could be "inlove" with me, but I can't helf but feel like his "love" should be more. idk if that makes sense. Anyway, last night I found out David lied to me, it was something really stupid, but still. It was something not worth lying about. I told him I didn't think he and I should talk or text anymore. I miss him, but I hate liars. I mean, I REALLLY hate liars. AND HE LIED TO ME. It's not what he lied about, it's the fact that he lied. I can't be with someone like that, I just can't. I mean, what else hashe lied about. Him loving me, him missing me?? everything his ever told me just seems like a lie now!! :(. Man, I really do miss him though. But what's done is done!
My now ex-boyfriend has treated me like **** for the last time!! He is a selfish, lying, cheating using jerk and he does not deserve me!! For two years I gave up a lot of stuff for him and I have never got anything in return. Oh wait!!! One dinner out and sometimes help with groceries. He just runs from girl to girl and uses them until they catch on or get sick of his cheating ways. He thinks he can be forgiven? Got news for you buddy! Your not near as hot as the first time I met you. You have let drugs destroy those beautiful muscles and your hair is breaking off from the lack of nutrients from living your hobo existence. Last time I saw you, you looked like a homeless guy just off the streets and you practically are!! Hygiene used to be something you really took care of, now you look as if your last shower was a few days ago and I know you are not brushing your teeth regularly. I don't want you anymore and yes!!! There are guys out there that I can and will replace you with!! It won't be a replacement, it will ba an upgrade!! I feel sorry for you and then I turn around and tell myself it didn't have to be this way, but you chose the hood hags and the drugs over EVERYTHING ELSE!! I have lost respect for you. YOU go be miserable by yourself!! You are not dragging me with you anymore!!! I have fond memories but somehow I know they will fade and that little ounce of love will be gone for good!! Thank you!! I needed to do that!!
I am going through a tough time right now with life in general. I am in college and not performing academically as well as I usually do. I study whenever I am not in class and not doing my job but I can never seem to pull out the grades that I want or need in class. The thing is I am not sure whether I am really interested in my major any more and I don't seem to be motivated to do well anymore. In high school I played two sports and was pretty good at both of them. I always tried my hardest in the classroom to get the best grades I could (and I did) so that I could possibly get a scholarship to play sports in college or at least play sports somewhere even if there was no scholarship. Well in short, I do not have an athletic scholarship and I don't play college sports. I tried out three years unsuccessfully. I am on a team in the summer that has college level players on it but I don't get much playing time because everyone else has already been playing for three months before I can even step on a field. I think the reason I feel unmotivated is because I see guys who don't do **** at school get everything that I work hard for and get nothing. I mean, I don't party but guys that seem to party all the time are able to get good grades. I haven't made a sports team in any of my years in college but I am in the weightroom and gym at least three times a week working out and running in hopes of being able to get more playing time in the league I play in during the summer while the guys who did make the school's team are in the weightroom standing around doing nothing and then are partying and drinking on the weekends. I've been unsuccessful with girls this year even when I treat them right. I see guys who treat women like **** with the girls that I try for unsuccessfully. It seems like nothing goes my way and I don't know what to do about. I am constantly stressed out trying to get good grades and trying to have a social life. I know life isn't fair, but in my opinion this is ridiculous. I really don't know what to do.
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