I HATE the way I am, I hate my body especially. All my sister are more developed physically then I am. They're taller, their breast are bigger, they've got a nice figure and I'm short, flat chested and I've got no figure. I'm just thin...I've got a boys body. I don't get it...why do I have to be so different??!!..I didn't care about the way I looked untill they all started laughing at me. My mother would talk repeatedly about how short I am and how I'm not at tall as my sisters and I should eat more and catch up and be at least of average height because my shortness is extremely unattractive...meanwhile I'm taller than her. My sister will talk about how I've got a body of a boy and how it's just not pretty at all. I can't take it anymore...I've never felt so ugly....I've never had such low self esteem. It bothers me everyday and I hate wearing a bikini because I'm a little smaller than everyone...all my friends talk about how small I am....everybody talks about how small I am...I seriously can't take it anymore...just thinking about it makes me cry. How do I make myself taller?...How do I make my breast grow?...SHOULD I DRINK MORE MILK..EAT MORE MEAT?...HELP!...I REALLY HATE BEING THIS WAY...I NEED SOME ADVICE.
THANK YOU.
I am a 35 year old female with the username grievingmom and I want to say ...
I am getting a tattoo next month only my best friend and my sister knows. my husband does not approve of tattoos he is going to be really mad at me but once its done there is nothing he can do about it. it will be a red heart with white n silver angel wings and a silver or gold halo above it with my sons name wrote in green (his favorite color) in the heart and his birthdate and death date underneath... it will be on my left arm near the top, so i can hide it with sleeves for times i dont want no one to see it.. the left arm represents the side my heart is on, the side he always snuggled up to, and the side of the van that was hit in the wreck. not really seeking advice but i want to know what you think about it.
It really bugs me how money oriented this stupid world is.
Say my friend and I meet a guy. I'd be talking about interests and hobbies, and finding something we have in common. She'd be talking about what a nice watch he has. It's not important to me... Right now, I may not have the most money in the world, but I don't go hunting for someone who can support me. When I did have more money, I never flaunted it- occasionally, yeah, I'd buy nice stuff, but money is just good to have.
Girls and guys alike, why can't you just do something that you love to do? That makes you happy? Why does money come up in the first 5 minutes of conversation with half of my friends??
My professors believe that money is the only motivator of their students. They are so wrong. People like me have a heart, I'll marry for love and I'll work for passion.
People just need to chill out. Do something you love to do and the money will be an added bonus. It really hurts me inside to see how many people get so caught up in it...
When I was 16 i had lots of problems. My father use to hit me and go out after he was done to buy me something from the store so i wouldnt tell anyone. I started getting tired of all the crap i was going through so i started cutting myself non stop. I also use to tattoo up my body and pierce wherever to let anger out. Well none of that worked. So i would get with a guy and tell him lies just so i could live with them to get away from my father. Well i finally found someone i really loved and cared for. We found out i was pregnant 5 months later he tried to get me to have an abortion. i though about it and was gonna do it until i seen the first ultrasound. We broke up in May of 2005 cause we was fighting nonstop and one day he came to my house with two girls so i hit him. Well he ended up hitting me back and throwing me to the ground and i went to the hospital. Well june came around and my daughter was born. Every since God had givin me her i stopped everything. drugs, drinking, and cutting also lying to everyone. I thank him everyday for her. All it took to change my life was my lil girl. She makes me smile every day i wouldnt give her up for the world.
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