This is the last thing on here that I will write about you...hopefully. I finally told you all I had to say. I glad that I finally put it all out there. Though a small part of me wishes it ended differently, I know this was probably for the best. I know that there are more reasons not to. I guess all I have to say is I'm not sorry. I'm not sorry it happened. I'm not sorry I fell for you, and you were too afraid to fall back (or at least allow yourself to fall any further). I won't keep holding on to you anymore. Though I know that this part of me that loves you will probably never go away, I'm not going to let it prevent me from moving forward. I'll always have that one sweet memory. I don't know what the future holds. Maybe somewhere way off, we'll meet again and the circumstances and timing will be better, but I'm not going to count on that. I gave you your chance to have me, and you didn't want it, at least weren't willing to take it. Another chance may or may not come again. You lost the one guaranteed time I supposed. I just want you to know I don't regret any of it. I'm glad that I went out on a limb and said something. I know that if I hadn’t that would have been something I’d regret. So, I wish you the best. Good bye.
I'm 17 and my boyfriend is 18. We've been together "officially" for over a year and "unofficially" for about two years. I love him beyond all reason and he loves me the same way. We've really had few problems in our relationship except he used to rave and do a lot of drugs. I've been in quite a few relationships and I realize that my boyfriend and I fit together well. We even have been working at the same restaurant for about 6 months together. Our families get along just fine, even though they never really spend time together. He's asked me to marry him and I've accepted, ring and all that jazz. But if I bring it up to anyone, they keep on saying how it's not possible for us to be happily married for the rest of our lives.
Is it really that uncommon for two teenagers to stay together til death do they part? Are people extra judgemental or am I just imagining it?
Ok, no one knows me here so I guess it's safe. I have a problem. It is a selfish, childish, un-important matter, but yet it's still my problem. I'm sleeping with my ex-boyfriend,a great man, with whom I no longer want to be with. However, it does not make me want him any less. Even though I don't want him. I want him to want me.
You know how when you are no longer with someone, you need a reason to convince yourself, why you should no longer be with them. With him I don't have any reasons. He is a great man. He is cute, kind, spritiual, great in bed, giving, I could go on and on. But I know that we are not right for one another. I know this because I believe in him, more than he believes in me. I know this because he can't help me carry my dreams, and he's not willing to try. I know this because when it boils down to truth of the matter, we are not the same. And where is headed, is not where I want to be, and the journey I'm on, is not the same road he's traveling.
I know all these things, but to me, right now, when I'm alone in my apartment. They are not good enough reasons, for him to not want me. It's selfish I know, but, it's my truth. And I hate it.
What I'm learning though, is that people need people. No one wants to be alone, we all want to be wanted. Even if only for a moment. We want to feel like we matter, to someone. They need us just as much as we need them, if only for day. For if we can have that for one day, we have a reason to live and face tomorrow. Alone.
My truth is that, it would be so much eaiser to let him go, if he wasn't perfect. But, I have too. I have to let him go. Along with all the ideas of what we could be, because we won't be. And my life won't end because of that. I will have to dream and new dream, and believe in it. So that I can have a more solid reason to want to wake up, and face tomorrow. Alone.
I have like this guy for many years now. His name is Jacob but that is all I can tell you. He is my friend but I want more. I have never had a boy friend. I dont want to ask him out because I dont want to get rejected and if i do that might ruin the relationship we have now. I dont know if he like me, i hope he does. We talk and every thing but I dont know what to talk about some times. I am out of ideas and I really want to go with him. Please Help! Thank you!
If I had of been 48 and my wife 26 when we married everyone would have found that acceptable. Except it is the other way around i was 26 when I married my wife who was 48.Everyone thought that was terrible. I was deeply in love with my wife when I married her and im more deeply in love with her now!We have a wonderful and very happy marriage.After 15 very happy years of marriage i am now 41 and my wife is 63.And yes we have a great sex life!!
I don't know, reading this site it seems like everyone is in love with their best friend. I'm not one to talk. I'm kinda going through this "time" right now. And I probably am in love with my best friend who is a couple states away. And I don't think I knew how much I cared about her till she was gone. I spent years chasing after her friends, other girls, I never expected to feel so much for her. I know that sounds cliche, which is ironic because there's nothing cliche about either one of us. Of course she does have a bit of a bf, who she never talked about in the years I knew her and did her best to hide. We haven't exactly lost touch, but we touch less than I'd like. lol. And due to a series of unfortunate events both in my career and family, there's no way I can just pick up and leave my current situation. Even if I did she has a new life now. And I care about her too much to complicate her already complicated life.
So for me, I'm trying my best to just forget her. Move on. Date new people. Sometimes that works. Sometimes it doesn't. Its hard when you expect the type of chemistry with someone new that you had with your best friend.
Basically I'm just posting this to say "I know what you are going through" to anyone else who is dealing with this stuff. I know, as I'm going through a multitude of pains (many of which I cannot reveal even here) I do take some solace in reading this site and no longer feeling "alone" in my troubles.
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