I am going through a tough time right now with life in general. I am in college and not performing academically as well as I usually do. I study whenever I am not in class and not doing my job but I can never seem to pull out the grades that I want or need in class. The thing is I am not sure whether I am really interested in my major any more and I don't seem to be motivated to do well anymore. In high school I played two sports and was pretty good at both of them. I always tried my hardest in the classroom to get the best grades I could (and I did) so that I could possibly get a scholarship to play sports in college or at least play sports somewhere even if there was no scholarship. Well in short, I do not have an athletic scholarship and I don't play college sports. I tried out three years unsuccessfully. I am on a team in the summer that has college level players on it but I don't get much playing time because everyone else has already been playing for three months before I can even step on a field. I think the reason I feel unmotivated is because I see guys who don't do **** at school get everything that I work hard for and get nothing. I mean, I don't party but guys that seem to party all the time are able to get good grades. I haven't made a sports team in any of my years in college but I am in the weightroom and gym at least three times a week working out and running in hopes of being able to get more playing time in the league I play in during the summer while the guys who did make the school's team are in the weightroom standing around doing nothing and then are partying and drinking on the weekends. I've been unsuccessful with girls this year even when I treat them right. I see guys who treat women like **** with the girls that I try for unsuccessfully. It seems like nothing goes my way and I don't know what to do about. I am constantly stressed out trying to get good grades and trying to have a social life. I know life isn't fair, but in my opinion this is ridiculous. I really don't know what to do.
My boyfriend and I have this disagreement about how we manage our won money (well, i least i'm the one who disgrees with how he manages his money) Anyway, we live together in a one bedroom apartment. The bills are easy to manage since we don't have too many bills to pay. But he prefers to pay the rent on the 4th instead of by the 1st of the month. I first i didn't say anythng because i thought it was just one month he was late with paying the rent. Than I looked at the the cable, pg&e, and cell bills and they're all paid late. So i'm trying to understand his method of budget as we're going through our finances and i just don't get it. Finally he admitted to me he didn't want to ask for help. I don't understand why he wouldn't ask for help if he was struggling with the bills. I mean, we both have jobs and we both get paid well. But he insisted he pay for everything while i took care of the groceries, laundry, and whatever necessites we needed to up keep our home. i thought this was odd but i agreed if only he would agree to informing me about needing help with any of the bills for the apartment. So i thought it was a done deal and to find out that he's been doing this for the past 3 months has really bent me out of shape. Because i look at it like wasted money on interest or late fees. We could be using that excess dollar amount towards something else. Do you see where i'm getting at? what if i didn't notice this for a whole year? or even longer than a year? We'd be in big trouble over something we can prevent now.
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Ok for the last 2+ years I have come down with a condition that makes it so that I can't eat ANY good food, no fruits, breads, etc. All I eat now are brown rice with eggs. All I can drink is water.
On top of this my condition make's it so that I cannot kiss, I cannot have sexual relations. I am in a constant state of cloudy headedness and I cannot hold down a real job because I have way too many medicinal and food routines I have to go through daily.
I have this one small job I can do from home that has held me through allowing me to pay my sparse living expenses. I need to make more to spend on medicine and health treatments but this last few months I'm not even making enough money to cover basic living expenses.
I feel pushed into a corner, I can't work until i'm healthy and I can't get healthy until I have money and time to spare. The health condition I have has so little research on it that 10 doctors all tell me different things, and so I spend money on treatments that don't work again and again. All the while my life is flying by, it's been years now with this condition and while i see other people developing relationships and gaining experience I am stuck in this mess. My job is so awful sometimes I work for 6 hours a day for 7 days in a row and make nothing.
I see my friends eating good food and enjoying life and having the audacity to complain about their problems. Meanwhile I am really being tested by what is happening, to continue fighting when you have no sex, no good tasting food, no clarity of mind, no money, and no solution in sight you're left steaming at the hand you're dealt.
I'm a romanticist, always before when I worked I kept a loved one in mind as motivation, but now I can't work and I have no ability to love. Such simple things that so many people take for granted are now what I covet.
Don't you ever feel like there's so much going on around you that you feel smothered and just want to get up and walk away the instant you start feeling this way? I know i do. i want to drop everything and take a time out before i explode. i'm not the type of person who gets frustrated very easily and i'm not known for being an angry person either. But, today was one of those odd days where everyone and everything was getting under my skin. i'm not P.M.S-ing nor is it that time of month for me, it's just a weird day full of stupid encounters. my patience has been pushed over and i've just had it up to the point of no return. i don't like having to express this but, venting has helped me blow off some steam. Thanks for listening to whoever has had a day like this.
I am a 20 year old female with the username jmkroeger123 and I want to say ...
Wow. I just read one of these telling things by a girl who is 20 and never had a b/f or been kissed. Well im 18 and in the same boat. No, I'm not having pity on myslef its just that I haven't found the right person, or they havent found me yet. IDK. I've had how many people tell me to stop looking and it will come to me, but thats not true. It never works. I've tried and it was worse than when i was looking, so I really don't know what to do. Just wait, I guess. But I hope that someone hurrys up and finds me, lol. If ya know what I mean. Anyway that's not the whole reason im here 2 say something though. What appalled me was how many of the comments were rude!!! This girl never did anything to these ppl and yet they bash her. I dont get it but w/e. im sure im gonna get some falck for this too but I just felt like someone should say something. I hope none of the comments I get are like that but I know some will be. If ur gonna say something at least make it worth while, and useful. Laterz!
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