My boyfriend is a US Army soldier currently serving in Iraq. I met him a couple years ago and felt an instant attraction to him. He was incredibly different from anyone I had ever met before... sweet, charming, intuitive and intelligent. We had a fantastic time together.
And then he was deployed again.
Since he's been in Iraq this time, he's started to act differently. He has become reserved and apathetic. He seems incredibly depressed at times and he says things via email that would sound like serious warning signs of impending self-harm. I'm afraid or him. And he has become massively critical of what I say and do. He has sent me some letters that have made me cry because they're so acerbic.
I'm aware that I will never know what it's like to go to war and I want to be sensitive to what he's having to go through in order to make it through his deployment, but he's turning into an entirely different person and I really don't know how to cope with it. He's demanding and angry, yet constantly claiming that I'm the only thing that's keeping him "going" and the only thing that he lives for. It's starting to make me feel kind of trapped.
I love him. I don't want to break up with him. I don't want to hurt him. But I can't stand this anymore. I could wait forever for him to return, but I can't seem to find any traces of the man that I fell in love with and it's breaking my heart.
So thanks for reading my ramble. I would really appreciate any advice on how to cope with this or what to do.
I am a virgin and plan to be one for a while. I like messing with my BF but I never take my undies off. It's kind of a protection thing I guess. Anyway, my BF says I can do oral and still be a virgin and he also says he can sex me in my bottom and I'll still be a virgin. Is that true or is he lying to me?
I feel so much pressure from everyone around me. I recently performed a solo in front of the whole school. I won a spelling bee and I am an advanced student. I want to make people happy, but I don't know what to do with my life.HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am not looking for advise and if you want to vent at me by saying I hope you die or whatever I do not care about that stupid crap either it is what it is an online confession about something bad I did many years ago. I am currently 39 years old and these incidents happened 7 years ago. My daughter was 7 and we had at the time a 12 yr old baby sitter who was pretty well devoloped for her age. I got the ideal when my wife accidently gave my daughter to much of her medication and right after my wife told me that it was 2 of the small spoons not the larger ones. We called the doctor and was advised just to keep an eye on her and she would be groggy but would would be fine and that I did not give her nearly enough for any life threatening but she would sleep a lot and could possible besick to her stomach. After this I kept the medication and told my wife I accidently threw it out. I will not say here what it was. However, after this I began experimenting by slipping doses into the sitters drinks. You see she spent the night on occassion when we used her services.I slowly and methodically increased the dosages. I would get very excited to see when we got back how sound asleep she would be. This took place over severl months. The first time she woke up when i entered her room but was obviously groggy. This built over time to where I would wake up in the middle of the night to touch her breasts and rub her *** then masterbate on her face.I at first would whipe it off then enjoyed seeing the dried cum on her face the next morning and her having no ideal what it was and laughing when my wife once saying it loks like you have donut icing on your face. Eventually, I got the nerve to do what I only dreamed of to not only touch her breats and rub her *** but to use lotion on her *** and my dick and actually f... her up the a..!!It was as good as I imigined it and even though she made noises and was obviously may have been uncomfortabe she did not apparently wake enough to remember it. I cleaned up after I finished her and went back to bed. The next day It was obvious by the way she was walking she was sore there but treated me no differently. After that I got afraid I may go to far with the medication and in a moment of concious I threw it away and never did it again but I still think back and love that memory often using it when I have anal sex with my wife. Yes, let out your shout outs to me I dont give a damn.
yesterday, an old flame contacted me. We havent spoke in about 3years, and altho we were just an on and off 8mnth fling we went our seperate ways on good terms. He even contact me a year later telling me he wanted to see me since he was leaving for school, but since i was in a serious relationship by then i never responded.
My bf of 2yrs and i have bn having our relationship troubles, and the old flames timing is confusing, bcuz on one hand, i'm sorta ready for a break with my bf, but then again this old flame is just a fling & i would never want to hurt my bf. i'm only 21 & my hormones are blazing for this old flame-- but then again i havent seen or heard frm him in years.
anyways he says we've got "catchin up to do" but from experience ikno the chemistry between us... i just want a One Night Only kinda thing and yet i Hate that i have this Guilt about cheatin on my bf. UGHHHHH! im jus confused-- cuz me & my bf havent had the easiest relationship & i always told myself if this old flame came back id Have to see him. BTW i knew my old flame b4 my bf....but,
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