Hey girl. I understand exactly what you are going through. I did not have my first boyfriend until I was eighteen. I just wanted to let you know that you are not the only one out there. There is nothing wrong with you. Just whenever you do get a boyfriend make sure he treats you good. Having a boyfriend is not what it is all cut out to be. I just got out of a two year relationship with my first boyfriend and he treated me like ****, but I put up with it because like you I thought there was something wrong with me and he would always twist everything up and make it seem like it was my fault but now I see that it wasn't. Just be careful and good luck to ya. You will find someone in time. Don't give up.
I believe there is that one person out there for everyone. I didnt used to believe that untill I realized something, that one person who you can see yourself growing old with spending the rest of your life with, and the one that knows you the best is your soul mate.
When i was in 9th grade in high school i met Michael. I thought he was the most gorgeous creature on this earth. I didnt tell him i liked him because i hung out with him all the time and i didnt want to ruin the friendship. well mike and i were close friends for about a year and a half and then he got kicked out of school so we stopped talking. well the summer before 11th grade we were reunited at a carnival. My friend Ange wanted to talk to his friend so i talked to mike about it and we got them together. Well Ange took it upon herself to tell Mike that i wanted to kiss him and when we were at the top of the ferris wheel he made his move. I was so supprised he accually kissed me. We were inseperable for like three days. In those three days he admitted that he had liked me since he met me. I had just recently gotten out of a relationship with my X Anthony. Well Ant found out that i was in a relationship and he wanted me back and i still loved him so he told me that he loved me and i ended up dumping Mike for Ant because i loved Anthony so much. Big mistake there. Anthony broke my heart time and time again. Well in between the breakups with Ant i would go back to Mike once in a blue moon. Then we kinda fell out. Anthony and I finally ended the relationship for the last time and I still wasnt talking to Mike. Yeah, I still cared about him but i figured he had prob forgot about me by then. Then out of the blue his mother called me in October and told me that he had gotten locked up and he really needed someone to talk to. I gave his mother my address and she gave it to him. I recieved my first letter a week later. I kept writing him and i started missing him even though i hav'nt seen him in forever, it was really weird. well i started going up to see him and he started calling me and we started talking more and more. i felt all my old feelings for him come back. it was so weird. I went to his first court hearing and when i saw the look on his face when he saw that i was there for him thats when i realized that i loved him... though i didnt tell him at the time. A couple days later i was on the phone with him and i just had to tell him, but when i tried no words would come out. it took me almost two hours to say it, but when it finally came out his reply was, "i have been waiting so long to hear you say that. Danielle, i've loved you since the first time i met you. When i saw that u were serrious about me and accually showed me you would be there no matter what at court thats when i fell in love with you". I thought i was going to cry. It was the happiest moment of my life. well im still waiting on him to get out. it shouldnt be to much longer, when he gets out we are getting an apartment together and hoping to get married soon.
Well, the moral of this is to not give up hope. I thought that Anthony was the only one out there for me, but Mike proved me wrong. When you think that no one will ever fall in love with you keep your head up and stop looking for it because it will find you, even when you last expect it.
so i have known my first & only love for 10 years now.... when i first met him i was getting on the bus for my first day of 7th grade, he was going into 6th, we met, and we became friends, i gave him my phone number, and we continued our friendship by talking on the phone, and seeing eachother in school, now i didnt have feelings for him other than friendship, but he fell for me, i explained to him i wasnt intrested, and continued the friendship. when my 8th grade year ended, he was still to remain there to finish his last year, i was off to highschool. we really didnt keep in touch, and thats a sad thing. highschool was fun, 9th grade a blast, i had so much fun i failed 9th grade history, so 9th garde ended, and summer came and went, before i knew it it was the start of the school year, ahh 10th grade, the day was going by cool, i knew it was time for me to enter 9th grade history as a 10th grader, i walked i and grabed my seat, i was sitting there before the bell rang, and talking to fellow 10th graders there with me, when all the sudden he walked in... i havent seen him in like 2 years, it was a shock to the both of us, he sat right behind me, then he noticed who i was as well, change is a god thing, he was smiling from ear to ear.... throughout the rest of the week, we began talking again, catching up on the things we missed out on telling each other.... we must have got so werapped up in writing notes back and forth, and talking, the teacher spilt us up... that didnt stop us, but something was still i the way, .... another girl, hius girlfriend, who i actually happend to be friends with, not bff, but friends. i wanted him so bad, i would have done anything to be with him, and i did. i let him know how i felt and to my surprise he still felt the same for me, but stronger than before.... we'll lets just say, he broke it off with her and started something with me. it was so great to finally have him, but i wasnt ready to fight for him. everyday i was constantly talked about for being a man stealer and this and that, but i didnt care, i had what i wanted and wasnt letting anyone have it. i was in love , for real, and i know its was mutual. well make a long story short, the ex was harrassing me, and so were her friends....i got annoying, but i stuck with it, i put up with alot of bullshit i shouldnt of, and didnt have to, but did b/c i wanted to be with him. it died down alil bit, and i was left with the rumors after that, oh he talks to this girl, and that girl, blah blah, i belived them b/c it was coming from people who i though were my friends, but we fought about that a lot.. and we made up alot. i have never had sex with someone, and have it feel as good as it did when i was with him. he knew how to touch me, how to kiss me, what to do, how to do it... he was everything to me, i tried so hard to keep him happy, i was always by his side when he was sick, and needed someone, a shoulder to cry on, a girlfrined, and a best friend, i always told him im your b0nnie, and your my clyde.... i was his ride or die *****, and he was my man.... but i guess everything isnt meant to be.... things got bad between us with the fighting and accusing, and we ended up apart, i missed him so much, but for some reason, we alwasy found a way to meet with one another, and we would always have sex, we missed that soo much, as well as eachother.... but that wasnt enough for me, i wanted more, i wanted him.... i wanted him back with me.... but the last time we saw eachother he informed me he was seeing someone, which hurt me so much, i asked him if he was "in love" with this girl, he didnt answser, so i asked him again, he stated he had love for her, which meant to me, he didnt know...well, like i said that was the last time i spoke to him. and it crushed me. it crushed me to know someone else was spending time with the man who i love and look up to, the person who makes me happy, the person i shared 4 years with, and known for so long. thinking to myself i wont get to call him when i wake up i the morning, or when i having a bad day, i cant come to him for his kisses, or hug, he wouldnt be there for me. he would be there for her. well i was still trying to cope with this throughout the years, and i would hear things about him, like how bad he was doing, how he lost weight, he looks sick, he looks unhappy, and i heard he was getting married, having a baby..... omg i was going crazy... why was he doing this, i then heard he was in a car accident with the car he was so in love with, i tried to reach out for him, but "she" wasnt having it. well i finally said i need to forget about him, he obviously forgot about me, so theres no use wasting time, and sleep over him... so i moved on. i went through relationships, but they didnt mean anything, nothing like him.... i was dealing, but stressed. well luckily for me.. i was browsing the computer and ended up finding him, he was single, and i was happy, i wrote with caution, he responded, letting me know its been a while, he missed me.... whats up? well we began speaking again thru the internet, and it lead to phone conversations, andf let me tell you , it felt so good to hear his voice, and to know he was still there. we got to talking about life without eachothe, and we agreed it sucked. we talked about our relationships, and things we have done while we were apart... all the things i thought and heard were happening where all stories... i knew he wasnt doing those things, i know him, and i knew it wasnt true. well.... now i have to say that i have him back in my life again, and i am still letting that fire keep burning for him, i know he loves me and he wants to be with me as much as i do him.... we are inseperable now, just like before, we got it for eachother bad, and we know it. yea "she" is still in love with him, but she doesnt mean as much to him as i always have.... this is the man that i truley love and respect only if he does the same in return to me.... wish me luck on my future... i just wanted to share this with anyone who wanted to read it......
This is for all those lonely (and maybe secretlly a little too hopeful sometimes) people out there. (myself included in that bunch)
I recentlly recived a email from a lady on Match.com. to make a long story short we started talking and I found out she was from Russia. Something didnt feel right about the situation... So me being the computer savy person that I am decided to check into this, and sure enough I found out within 10 minutes of research that my little lady friend was a known scammer. Heres the website address:
My advice?.... Be very careful who you talk to online, not just advice for kids, but adults need to be too. There are losers out there that can be very convinceing, and do manage to scam money out of many people. So a heads up from someone that just had a bit of a close call with a scammer. Fortunatelly "she" hadnt even gotten around to the part about needing money from me, I figured "her" out before that happened. Be careful who you talk to online. and happy online dating to anyone going that route out there.
Ever since I was in 4th grade this other girl liked me. She is a year older than me. When I go skating she shows up and she is always all over me like butter on a biscuit. And she is always in between me and my other friends. The thing is I'm a girl. And a lesbion, but I already have a girlfriend. And she doesn't know. PLEASE HELP NOW!!!
Im 19 and I have a lil girl.. its not that I want to find that one and marrying him but Im looking for that one I can settle with .. Well recently I got out of a relationship with a police officer and I dont know what to do about it because I still care but he broke up with me because I had a kid and he didnt want kids right now. but everytime he sees me by myself or with another guy he is always staring at me, tells me its nice seeing you, thinks I have moved on sooner than he thought, etc. I dont know if he wants to be with me and is just scared or what please help
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