I am going through a tough time right now with life in general. I am in college and not performing academically as well as I usually do. I study whenever I am not in class and not doing my job but I can never seem to pull out the grades that I want or need in class. The thing is I am not sure whether I am really interested in my major any more and I don't seem to be motivated to do well anymore. In high school I played two sports and was pretty good at both of them. I always tried my hardest in the classroom to get the best grades I could (and I did) so that I could possibly get a scholarship to play sports in college or at least play sports somewhere even if there was no scholarship. Well in short, I do not have an athletic scholarship and I don't play college sports. I tried out three years unsuccessfully. I am on a team in the summer that has college level players on it but I don't get much playing time because everyone else has already been playing for three months before I can even step on a field. I think the reason I feel unmotivated is because I see guys who don't do **** at school get everything that I work hard for and get nothing. I mean, I don't party but guys that seem to party all the time are able to get good grades. I haven't made a sports team in any of my years in college but I am in the weightroom and gym at least three times a week working out and running in hopes of being able to get more playing time in the league I play in during the summer while the guys who did make the school's team are in the weightroom standing around doing nothing and then are partying and drinking on the weekends. I've been unsuccessful with girls this year even when I treat them right. I see guys who treat women like **** with the girls that I try for unsuccessfully. It seems like nothing goes my way and I don't know what to do about. I am constantly stressed out trying to get good grades and trying to have a social life. I know life isn't fair, but in my opinion this is ridiculous. I really don't know what to do.
Why is it that almost all guys not all of them want to have sex all the time, I mean geez is it really worth it ? " WOW A WHOLE 2 AND A HALF MINUTES THAT WAS GREAT " and then the lady is like " That was okay ( Dissatified) AND ALMOST ALL GUYS ARE JERKS SOMETIME THEY DATE A GIRL 2 WEEKS LATER THEY ARE ALREADY HAVING SEX THEN HE LEAVES HER it is like why did you do that? Only to satisfy yourself and leave the girl after you got what you wanted from her. I think that too many people are like this and that is not right. I mean I know that we have freedom to choose who we have sex with under the circumstances that they are 18 or older and are also wanting to have sex with you . But I MEAN, WHY BOTHER IF GUYS GOT THERE DICK CUT OFF THEN WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO DO ? IT SEEMS THAT ALMOST EVERY PERSON I MET ONLY CARES ABOUT 1 THING AND THAT IS HAVING SEX WITH SOME GIRL. I MEAN IT COULD BE PRETTY BAD THEY JUST KNOW HER NAME AND THEN THAT IS IT , NOT EVEN HER BIRTHDAY, HER HOPES, DREAMS , PLANS FOR HER FUTURE AND THEN THE GUYS JUST START WANTING TO HAVE SEX IT IS LIKE THEY ARE ALL ANIMALS AND FROM MOST OF THESE STORIES I HAVE READ I AM DISGUSTED AND IF I MET ALL OF THE PEOPLE IN THESE STORIES WHO DO THESE TERRRIBLE THINGS I WOULD SEE THAT THEY GO TO PRISON FOR LIFE . some of the things are so terrible i'm surprised that the police have not caught these people because they need life sentences in jail , because CAPITAL PUNISHMENT IS THE EASY WAY OUT.
How can God forgive somebody that has commited adultry how can he and there is no way to be a honest person since then there is no way it is something that keeps you from being honest and alway knowing that you did it and then have to worry about that person talking to other people. you know I hate myself for everything that I have ever done in my life and wish that I never existed because I have never amounted to nothing because of it. so much I hate my life. So much that I wish I was dead. I don't know why God created me because I am nothing, nothing at all except a peice of trash and don't amount to nothing I wish that I could do right and live right but I cant and never will be able to because of all of my sins. I wish that I could have Jesus in my heart and not sin against him but I know that I can't do that because of what we watch. and how things always are. And for that God I am sorry and sorry for the sins that i commit by calling the people that i do. I wish that i would have to keep it a secret but I have to. All he does is watch and wonder who is is and there isn't nobody no more.
Why the hell am I responsible for everyone's crap filled life?
Black people: I didn't ship any of you over here! I don't force you to do anything. And by the way your not African Americans!! I don't care how many times they say it on TV. If you were born in this country then you are in fact just plain old AMERICANS. I don't see any of you speaking African languages, hell most of you can barely speak basic English. Unless you can prove beyond a shadow of a doubt that I, Myself, am responsible for your lot in life you need to let it the "F" go because you modern black people WERE NEVER SLAVES!
Women: I did not make the Glass Ceiling. I don't care how you deal with your bodies. Vote all you want, cause we all know by now that its pointless! I hate the fact your refered to as Sluts and Whores for doing the same things that men are praised for by their friends. So don't give me this crap that all men are evil and try to keep you in the kitchen. You are equal to men, just read your history! Women have been and always will be just as Mean, Evil, Petty, Vindictive, and full of lies as Men are! Accept it and MOVE ON!
Gay people: I don't care at all! PDA makes most people uncomfortible, deal with it and save it for home. Personally I think you should work on outlawing religion as a means to an end! Just stop bitching about movies and tv when your cast in a bad light. Your just making them more money!
The only life we humans are responsible for is our own! Blaming a whole race, sex, or age group will not help you. It will only hurt you. Leave the past behind you, just drop it and move on.
My boyfriend and I have this disagreement about how we manage our won money (well, i least i'm the one who disgrees with how he manages his money) Anyway, we live together in a one bedroom apartment. The bills are easy to manage since we don't have too many bills to pay. But he prefers to pay the rent on the 4th instead of by the 1st of the month. I first i didn't say anythng because i thought it was just one month he was late with paying the rent. Than I looked at the the cable, pg&e, and cell bills and they're all paid late. So i'm trying to understand his method of budget as we're going through our finances and i just don't get it. Finally he admitted to me he didn't want to ask for help. I don't understand why he wouldn't ask for help if he was struggling with the bills. I mean, we both have jobs and we both get paid well. But he insisted he pay for everything while i took care of the groceries, laundry, and whatever necessites we needed to up keep our home. i thought this was odd but i agreed if only he would agree to informing me about needing help with any of the bills for the apartment. So i thought it was a done deal and to find out that he's been doing this for the past 3 months has really bent me out of shape. Because i look at it like wasted money on interest or late fees. We could be using that excess dollar amount towards something else. Do you see where i'm getting at? what if i didn't notice this for a whole year? or even longer than a year? We'd be in big trouble over something we can prevent now.
I have been friends with this girl my entire life.
Since we've grown apart, she's become completely wild...
I hate that I'm speaking so badly about her, but she's turned into a SLUT!!! She's with a new guy or in the process of hooking up with a new guy every time I talk to her!!! When she is supposedly "with" someone, she still talks and flirts with other men...
when she is "with" someone, she claims that she loves them, how she thinks that "this could be the one", she "doesn't want to hurt them"...but she ends up doing that anyway!
she broke up with this one guy because he wasn't ready to get intimate with her....they'd only been dating for TWO WEEKS!!!!
a lot of people have told her to her face that she needs to stop screwing every man that she sees! the thing is, this has been going on for at least 3 years now...and it's like noone can reach her...she just keeps going after these guys, getting what she realllllly wants, and throwing them to the side like they don't matter, or their feelings don't matter! it's driving me crazy to talk to her everyday, just to hear about the latest man she's trying to get the pants off of!
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