why do you do it>?? why do you play with my emotions and my head? are you really that cold that you don't care that i cry myself to sleep beacuse of you most nights? or do you just not actually realize how much you hurt me? i want you to like me and i'm bending over backwards to make you happy, but do you not care? what have i done that i'm so unattractive to you?
I hate seeing you with her. You seem so happy and I remember when that used to be us. I know we would fight endlessly and the screaming never stopped; but then I sit and think of the times we actually got along. I remember the way you used to smile and laugh with me. Do you even remember the last time you gave me an actual smile? Cant you see it kills me when I hear you tell her you love her when you get off the phone with her? I don’t know if it’s the fact that you’re with her or the fact that I have to sit by and watch it alone because I have nobody. Would it hurt less if I was involved in my own relationship? Something to take my mind off of you and her?? I want to destroy what you have with her. It sounds really bad, I know. But desperate time call for desperate measures. I want you to be as unhappy as I am. I know it’s not fair and maybe I need some serious help but dammit it sickens me to no end watching the two of you together. I want you to suffer like the times you made me when we were married. You tell me you don’t love me anymore and I know deep down I don’t love you either, so why am I this obsessed? I never did the drugs she’s doing now. We have two kids together and they’re the ones suffering because of it all. You’re so far up her *** that you no longer come by and see your kids anymore. The child support you were paying stopped also because she wants to keep the money all to herself and of course your listening to her. She has changed you so much and sadly, it hasn’t been for the better. Is that why I want to break ya’ll up? Maybe if you’re not with her anymore then you’ll be the good father you used to be again to our kids. I don’t know anymore. I just don’t know….
I just broke up with my boyfriend who is 27 yr. old but you couldn't tell from the way he acted. We broke up because I wasn't feeling him, he complained about me not texting or calling him back and not showing him any love. He spent a lot of time on the Internet writing blogs and sending messages to other females. It didn't bother me but I started to realize he seeking attention from people. And he always had the nerve to say he's an OG or he's a Gangster WTF! And me on the other hand always telling him to grow up. Plus he told me he didn't have feeling so it was all good but I check my e-mail and found 3 long pages of him telling me how he felt. Then I found a blog he wrote about me and tried to block it but I have my connections. So why do men still try to be all Thuged out and call them selves OG's that mess is played out. At what age can a man call himself a MAN. And that does not mean just because you lay up with someone or making babies make you a man.
I'm in a long distance relationship. We've been together since like forever.. seriously!! well i just decided to get a myspace page. b 4 i got myspace we would write each others letters. well the thing is, i started writing him stuff on his comments. one day i went on and was browsing and i found that he had erased all my comments. HOW RUDE!! so i went back and erased all his comments. was i wrong? i mean, i don't get it.why would u erase something like that. at first i thought, okay maybe i was alittle too corny. but then i was like F*** that. why do u think he erased them? well anyways he had the nerve to get mad at me because i erased his, claiming that it wasn't like that! well he must not know bout me!!!!!!!!get@me
i've been with my bf for the past year. I moved in with him in july, but our relationship has always been kind of rocky. I know that i care about him, and i know he loves me, we've been through it all and back, but sometimes, i find myself wondering if im even in love with him anymore. I want to move out, and eventually break up, but then, when i go home every night and he's there pulling me to him, looking into my heart and telling me how much he loves me, how much i mean to him, and how he wants to be with me forever. Im only 20, and im a realist too. i know that at 20, this isnt a "forever" thing (at least i hope not) -- but im torn becuase he's my first love, and i've seriously gone thru hell and high water with and for him.
i dont know how to leave him without him freakin out and trying to make it impossible to leave -- bcuz i've tried, but then i always come back because 1) he's the only one i've been with for a long time 2)i live with him 3) sometimes, i just think what it'd be like without him and i just get heartsick that i wouldn't be waking up in his arms anymore and 4) He truly makes me feel like he wouldn't b doing so well in his life without me there.
just like every couple we have our ups and downs. But, we're so much alike, its getting to be irritating. lately when we argue, i just find myself giving up, and thinking of those days when i was single and didnt have no man to take care of. I'm comtemplating having an affair (since im practically married) --but its not really in my character to cheat on someone i love. id rather break up first--- i just dont know How to do it, or even If thats what i really want.
i guess im just confused, --i love him so much, we almost had a baby, and i take care of him like he's my husband... im just... argh! smothered i think. its my first bf/gf relationship, and its just really intense. eh, im not really looking for advice, just venting. WHy ArE ReLaTioNsHiPS sUmWaT a StRuGGLe 2 MaIntAiN?!
now that we live together, its like BAM! "oh, right, this is who i AM" --and i wonder if we only stay together because its habit, its routine, its comfortable, its something we're used to.... He knows me so well, he can deal with my little "temperments" and i can read him like a book as well. i know we still love each other, sometimes i feel that we just fell in love too quick,
so my main question is... should a couple stay together if they have to work extra hard to maintain it???....what happens when the honeymoon is over..?
why is it that after someone hurts you so badly, they're still the greatest man ever in your heart? why can't i walk away from them the way they did for me and never shed a tear? why do i have to be the damn compassionate one? they hurt me so bad, and they're still wonderful men....
i want to be happy with my great big sexy marine, i'm so happy he's stationed far away right now so it's not his shoulder i'm crying on about this, he doesn't need that in his life, not even from me. i want to forget those that i should. i want to stop loving them and start hating them for how they hurt me. i want to be the best girl i can be for my marine....
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