i want to be skinny so im trying to starve myself. dont reply with all the crap it can do to ur body coz i already know. sometimes i make myself sick when ive eaten something fattening. i dont like doin it but i just cant lose weight. and i lie all the time about stupid things. lies just come out of my mouth like i cant stop it. im scared 2 tell anyone in case im mentally ill. i hate myself for this.
Im big. It's not like a lot of other Americans arn't bigger, but I'm a teen which makes it hard. Yes, I am sort of fat. Not like a lot of other people, but just enough to tell. I feel like I get treated differently, and at night I fall asleep wondering what it is like to be skinny. I've always wanted to be more popular, have more guy friends, be flirted with more. I know I am pretty. A lot of people tell me I am, guys even. But things are still hard. I can't do a lot of things without getting insecure about myself. I've always felt like I am smaller than I am, but when people take pictures of me, I dont look small, thats why I dont like to get my picture taken. Im trying to loose weight, but Im scared I'll never be able to look how I want. Sometimes I wonder why I am the way I am. I always wonder what it's like to be skinny. What its like to have more friends. And what its like to have a good boyfriend.
Yeah. I make myself out to be so popular, and it's worked. Inside though, i feel as though nobody knows the real me. The deep me. It's annoying, because in all my popularuty, i have trouble gettin a girlfriend. This makes me question myself 24-7 now. Am i really that cute, am i really even different from every other guy?. Like, what the ****?! It feels like girls want to get with me, but don't show it through action. I don't know wether it's me, or if im hanging around the wrong people. or what. It's driving me insane. Im still a virgin at 17, yet i have girls around me 24-7. Not only that, but im the type of guy that most girls tend to go crazy over. This isnt coming from conceition. I've been told this many times by different people. I just don't know what to do about it. Im not the type of guy who shows out and tries to act tough, though i WILL **** you up if you mess wit me too much. I tend to be outspoken, but not obnoxious. Im into music production, graphic arts, breakdancing, partying, writing rhymes, im always well-dressed, i got a natural charisma (i have no enemies in life), etc. the list goes on and on. its just not fair. Im good at so many things, but i fail at getting people to know the real me. Advice please?
I'm a gay 14-year-old and I'm still in the closet. I like this guy at school sooooo much he's kinda my friend but the thing is I don't want to like him. I don't want to be gay. I've heard a c countless number of times that all gay people will go to hell. My mom died when i was 8 and I miss her soo much and with me being gay I just want to kill myself. But if I kill myself I'll go to hell to so there's no way out. So many people hate gays and I always feel like a spy behind enemy lines; everyone not knowing who you really are. I don't know what to do. I don't hate gays (obviously). I just don't want to be gay anymore, I hate it!
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