ok i havint cryed a singel tear for 5 years now since my vary last suicid atempt and well something bad would hapen to me that normaly would make me cry. but i dont even when the emotions are there the tears wont come and it hearts alot sometimes. what is this is somthing worng with me? bucause i have been off my meds for 2 years now and doing good and feel happy now for the first time ever. but 6 months ago a friend died that was like a sister to me and i could not cry. but when i do feel so sad i could die i still cant cry. what is causing this num feeling in me why cant i feel tears?
Why does life have to be SO cruel? It is all fine and dandy, then WHAM, it takes whatever made you happy away from you. Life is cruel! All I wanted to say.
I always tell people that I'm honest and I am about most things, if I lie I'll confess right away. There have been a few times this didn't happen. I've lied about my age for about ten years, I'm not even twenty yet. A guy I hooked up with really pissed me off so I told him I was pregnant so he would give me money for an abortion. I felt really bad after I spent the money. I tell everyone I've had ten partners, I think I'm even lying to myself. Does it count if I didn't feel it?
I'm white. Why is it a big deal? If I describe someone as being a big black man, people call me racist. The thing is, people can turn on me and be like, "haha, it'd be funny to see you walking down this road.. because you're white." I'm not ******* racist and I know it. I'm not going to be describing the same black guy as "tall, dark hair, dark eyes"... See what I mean? Everyone can describe me as a white girl, why can't I say, "He's black" or "He's Puerto Rican"? OK, so once a long time ago you guys were our slaves. I mean, I'm sorry, that sucks. I don't believe what our country did was right. It's all a really bad situation, but I do not owe you anything. I wasn't there. Now, I shouldn't have to skirt around subjects that I can freely talk about with white people around black people because they may be offended, when they do the same to me. I'm not racist. This really bugs me.
I am a 30 year old male with the username verty and I want to say ...
It has come to my attention that potentially certain moderators seem to dislike threads concerning masturbation. Considering that virtually every human indulges in masturbation, one would think threads about it would be fine, but for the last while now I see that many masturbation posts are not allowing comments. It seems to me that when sufficiently few moderators reject a post, it is still shown but comments are disallowed. I want these prudes to accept both that it happens and that it is a normal thing for humans to do. Seeing that it is normal, discussing it should be fine. Okay? The post about the girl who masturbates with the shower-head is a good example. Let's talk about it, people.
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