I am a 31yr old male. I have a problem with masterbating. I do it all the time. Mostly while i am driving. I always pull up to another vehicle on the left and hope that it is a women driving. As i pull up I start jerking off hoping that she will see me. It is very exciting and i almost cum instantly when i get caught.I am hooked and i cant stop. I do it every day onthe way to work and on the way home. I am so afraid to get caught and reported to police. I really dont need to be considered a sex offender and become registered. I need help. I dont know how to stop.
One night when I worked at the local prison I became friends with this one older inmate, that was against the rules, but I worked the midnight shift, and nobody really paid any attention. He was at least 10 years older than I was, one night after about a month, I was in his room and he showed me a picture of one guy screwing another guy. Thats all it took, and I asked him if he would screw me like that. He wouldn't that night, but the following saturday night after lights out I saw his door was open just a crack, and his light was on, that was the signal I was watching for. That night was our first time, I was hooked and he knew it, so he started asking me to bring him things, I knew that was wrong, but he had me hooked, and I knew he'd tell if I didn't. One night about 3 months later I was in his room, he was on me when the door opened and two other guards walked in. They did tell on me. I got suppended for 30 days, but nothing happened to the inmate, because I was the one that started it. When I went back to work I got a lot of razzing from the other guards, and lots of offers from other inmates.
I sleep with my television on bc I fear utter silence. Night time is the only time I wtch TV and I watch cartoons and soaps mostly bc reality can be so dry and depressing sometimes.
I have been married 4 months and feel ashamed when ever i make love to my wife. I am 34 and i have not been married before as i never had much luck with women.My wife is 56 and was a widow. I love her very much with all my heart!!She is my life!!After our marriage i moved into the home she shared with her first husband for 31 years until his death. My problem is that whenever i make love to my wife i feel uncomfortable.Its as if i am doing something wrong and shouldnt be intimate with her.I know this is not good for our relationship as i am not pleasuring her as much as i did before our marriage. I think one of the reasons for this is that she still has framed photos of her and her first husband together.She also has framed photos of her and together.But it makes me feel uneasy. In our bedroom she has a framed photo of her and i on our wedding day but she also has a framed photo of her and her first husband on their wedding day. It always makes me feel uncomfortable when we are having intercourse and i look and see a photo of my wife in a wedding dress with another man.It makes me feel i am being intimate with another mans wife when i know that he is gone and she is now my wife!I am thinking of suggesting that we move to another home and asking her to store the photos of her first husband.I amhoping that these things will help me.
Three days before the last day of my senior high school year, I got fucked in the shower room by the class bully. The other kids were cheering him on, and it looked like I was really trying to get away but it was just for show. It wasn't the first time that he'd done that, but it was the first time with other kids watching.
I want to say that, I do not want to live no more, unless I can make my penis normal. Please, do not laugh at me, I have been laughed at all my life. Women are cruel, and, honestly, I can not blame them. I am the freak, and if I can not make this penis bigger, if science can not ( or Dr.s do not care to find out )then, there is no point in living. It is so devastating, humilliating, to know that I will never measure up. To know that girls look at me and laugh. To know that only by pity, I can get a woman?? Do you know how many women I lost because of this??? Do you know that many mean batard men have average or large penises???
I hate the world......why would God give a man a small penis, only to be humilliated like this. Would you like your daughter to go out w a guy w a small penis????? would you like your son to have a penis that is small???? then WHY do I have to go through this???? I think the best I can do is show some courage and finish it all. The most abhorrent perverted humilliating denigrating disgrace a male can go through.
WHY?????????????????????????????????????????????????????
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