I don't care about your pride
or the secrets that you hide
They are mine
I've got you wrapped around my finger
tied tight like ( a corset, lace, a knot )
If you don't think i can do it
I'll use my charms ( to disarm you, to alarm you )
Tactile senses are only good for one thing
Touch of skin, Taste of love
The kind that one can't measure
Become subdued, fall into the hands of love
Tread blissfully alongside torture
Let me tame you, i can't blame you
Desires of the flesh
Best enjoyed when trapped and chained
Wont you join the pleasured, The tamed
So basically.. which of the ones in the ( ) to use? i am not sure
i'm so sick of hearing
"yea i understand"
"i know how you're feeling"
"it's part of the plan"
what do you know
of my life of my chains
did i tell you everything?
did you hear me explain?
because i don't remember
sharing my life with you
and you'd never know
unless you were in these shoes
and i don't care
if you don't like what you see
because it's not that easy
to merge into me
you see my life is like fire
hidden beneath the smoke screen
and it's dancing so gracefully
though it cannot be seen
and my soul is like water
in its many shapes and forms
and can never be captured
except by the storm
that is your love and my deepest desire
but all that does is fuel the fire
so i float in the sky higher and higher
until i realize i'm walking a tight rope wire
then every step i take
every thought i assemble
makes my heart start to pound
my knees start to tremble
but i always slip up
say the wrong thing
and i fall down so fast
feel that familiar sting
cuz you're no longer there
to catch me in your arms
even though you promised
never to let me come to harm
so let's set some things straight
let me make this real clear
i'm not what you want
and you're not why i'm here
my signals may be mixed
cuz the autopilot's on
and i'm not always here
i'm just tagging along
and i may seem interested
because your smile makes a spark
but i can guarantee you
you'll never have my heart
because you don't know me
and i like to keep it that way
even though the storm may come
but not today
how would it feel?
to touch your skin
your hands? grand i bet
your face? id be lost in space
your lips? that would be the ultimate it
but.. theres always a but
if i were to
society labels me the slut of the year
tears inside i hold because i wonder what if?
still young and curious
still frontin like im serious...
if only i could stand tall and make my life my all
then all these ? would be answered
i think of you, day dream of you, curious of you
but who are you? really
are you the sweetness you present?
the humor that attracts me to your scent... this attraction is such an accident?
one day maybe... if not then forever i will be in the shady... dark with no light to spark and read what was written for me and you...
deep in some part of this heart
holds a sweet place for you
and if it always remains true....
What
I don't know
What is this?
Don't ask me
This is supposed to be serious
But I fail to see it
This is supposed to be funny
But I fail to laugh
I'm supposed to be hungry
But I can't eat a bite
I'm supposed to cry
But my eyes are dry
I'm supposed to be mad
Yet I feel kind of sad
Happyness
A lack of it
Wave of Melancholy
Swelling over me
drowning me
I can't breathe
I want to swim out
I want to get out
But I'm stuck
Only you can give me air
Will you drag me out?
Only you can
Life
it seems so dull
My feelings are on null
On standby
Until I see you again
Until I hear your voice
Your beautiful voice
until I see your face
Your beautiful face
Memories
Every memory of you
Cheers me up
Remembering your voice
Turns night to day
Day
Isn't so bright
Not without you
Morning fails
Unless you're there
Time
Time slows
No longer flows
I cant stand the time
It takes to see you again
Feelings
I feel sick
I feel sad
Yet, I feel nothing at all
Not when I'm away from you
Not when I havn't heard your voice
Your beautiful voice
Not when I havn't seen you
You're so beautiful
Love
What is it?
I only know when I'm with you
When I'm holding you, talking to you, laughing with you
I know what this is
I'm so happy
Life looses all evil
Making new memories
The day has a new sun
Time is on my side
I feel better than ever
I love you
I love you
Overwhelmed with ambition
Anxiety takes me for a joy ride
Making provision for the unexpected
To arouse unannounce and exploit my
Deep secrets leaving speechless
Revealing the revelations of my own ties
Knotted in the pits of my stomach are emotions
Which were triggered and provoked by
The stroke of his touch
Delivered by his gentle hands, oh what a gentle man
To explain with explanation is complicated
Even though that moment was quite simple then
Its crazy how such a delicate gesture can bring on so much pressure
Til where the depths of my emotions can become infinate in meassure
Still yet my barriers won't allow me to go but so far
Because the fear of not knowing this mans heart
Set limits and boundaries with questions lurking in the dark
He loves me, he loves me not...? That is the question
So indefinate but that simple confession
Draws the line between acceptance or rejection
And if I could display my emotions on a canvas, it would be
A silouette of unsurity, a typical outline of what could be
You and Me, both pronouns so profound and pronounced
Silently with no sound but with the satisfaction of knowing I'm Yours and you're mines. A love devine, endangered and hard to find
And the the of sharing that love with you gives me peace of mind
I've liked this guy[ian] for 2yrs. He doesn't understand that I've liked him for so long but he knows i like him. When we first started talking about "us" he was down and then he lead me on forever, it kinda hurt. I stopped talking to him for a few weeks and he said hi to me on myspace and had been askin to kick it. We've been hanging out and just being friends and acting like the past never existed, like always. Every time we run into each other, we try and make the best of it.
Im not sure if he feels the same way because he's always acting fake or joking around alot so i can never tell if he's serious. He's so happy with himself, yet he isn't. I read him like a book but not by real thoughts or feelings.
He makes me feel confident. Open-minded.
Sex is the last thing on my mind when im around him.
I want to be able to share my side of life with him.
I want to be able to open my real self to him.
I want to be able to love and nourish him.
I want to care about everything he does.
I want to be able to be jealous and have him in front of me telling me how he'd never leave me for that *****, ever.
I want to be able to love.
I got alotta love to show but no one loving enough for me.
Im pretty much lost, until <i>he</i> finds me and holds me close.
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