I'm an 18 male who has been living with depression my whole life. Latly I have had this empty feeling in my heart like I need someone, like I need a girlfriend. This hole seems like it is getting Bigger and BIGGER as time passes. I've tried relationships, and they just do not work out for me. Up until a week ago I had this empty feeling, but is just misteriously went away. This happened when I was reunited with a female I haven't seen in over a year. Everytime I am with her I don't feel this empty hole, but as I sit here typing, the hole is there. What does this mean? Does this mean she is my soul mate? Please respond, I need some help.
Ok well, this has been on my mind since this past summer, and I think writing it for the world to see is a great way to finally bring my thoughts on it to a close. First of all, before I say anything, I'm over it! Everything! You'll understand when you read to the end. Ok well, I am a teenage girl(14), and I am a new Christian. I've grown up in church my whole life, but I never really wanted a relationship with Jesus since I was 13. Anyway, this story is an example of how the devil tried to mess me up, but he failed! Ok, on with the story then...
There was this guy who basically started giving me attention. I was very self-consious and extrememly shy and I had problems with myself, so I totally fell for his cruel game. Well, he probably didn't even know what he was doing. Anyway, he started calling me "wife" and "baby" when I barely knew him...he would touch my shoulder and stuff. Well, doing that made me "fall" for him, which now I see I never did. My brother ended up telling this guy I liked him, and then things got akward. He ignored me when I was around, and it hurt. It really hurt. I prayed and prayed, but I never really gave the whole situation to God. I started to cut myself. I got into a routine of wanting to see him, but when I did I would feel miserable. It was AWFUL!!!! I told my mom what was going on and she helped me pray and gave me great advice and really comforted me. Then this guy started talking to me again, but now I hated it when he did. He was so unpredictable...one day he would like me, and the next I didn't exist. Then I found out he had a girlfriend! I was pissed and even more angry!!!! I FINALLY went to God and told the whole story to Him, and I cried it all out and worshiped Him, and I felt free. I was like, I am better than this!!! So I attempted to really get over him, but everytime I saw him my heart skipped a beat. I mean, he was really cute. But as time went on, and I prayed more, and really only thought about Jesus a lot, things got better. Soon I could see the guy without my heart going crazy. Then it just became akward. It still is. I refuse to even look at him, and when he is around me I think about not thinking about him. But then I started counseling, and I realized why I thought I fell head over heels for this guy. See, my dad has fallen away from the Lord for the past few years, and he hasn't been giving me or my brother the attention we need. So, this guy became that attention that my dad wasn't giving me. I never really like the guy, I only liked the attention. In the end I stopped cutting, thank God, and now I am better and I've moved on. It feels so GOOD not to like anyone, because now I can just focus on Jesus!!! Woosh! lol
I am a terrible horrible friend. I think that I have commited a capital offense on my friendship because I didn't defend my friend when I had promised to. I am also a terrible horrible person to myself because I did not stand up for what I believed in. I don't know if I'll ever recover from this.
well i was born in 1989 and my dad never wanted me, but after i was born he discided he wanted me!
he was always horrible to my mum infront of me threating her and when it came to her birthday or christmas he would not get her any thing!!
my dad got the family into serious dept problems!
when i ws 10 my mum had to go to court over a speeding fine, that morning a policeman came to the door to tell me and my dad that my mum took her own life!
a month after my mums furneal he found a new women and she moved in my mums house 2 months after she died, she seemed nice, but then after a few weeks she started stealing christmas preaents and money from me, also calling me thick and saying that my dad is selfish and doesnt love me.
within 2 years of them being married and suffering the mental abuse me dad divorsed her after she got grunk and split his lip open!
two days after they split up my dad moved in with another women, the divorce was difficult as she took my dad for everything!
a year on my dad has married this other women, she seems quite nice!
but i feel alone as my dad never talks about my mum to me and if i try he tells me why do i have to bring it up and to leave her in the past!
i dont know how to talk to my dad as we are growing further and further apart!
i dont want to loose my dad but i cant leave the memory of my mum in the past!x
i cheated on my g/f twice. now before you judge let me explain.
one night i went to hang out with girl from myspace. i met her once before. now my g/f never wants to give me head. and this girl was about to move. so i hung out with her and she gave me head at the end of the night and she moved.
i got in a little trouble with my g/f for sneaking out while she was sleeping but she never found out. she however did find out about my ******* my ex g/f. however i lost my virginity to her and love her with all my heart. i dont consider it cheating considering i dont love my g/f and am only with her for necessity sake. if you love someone you wont cheat on them. i never would have cheated with my ex. and i swear once i break up with my current g/f i will never cheat again. once a cheater always a cheater isnt true. i never cheated on my ex and never would cheat on someone i truely love.
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