One day I was gather up some laundry because that's one of my chores and I went into my brother's room to get his cloths out the hamper. WTF, I found a pair of my panties on the floor by his bed. I picked them up and was grossed out. It appairs he had jerked off and blew his load all over them. It makes me wonder what else he has been doing to my stuff. Do you think he is thinking of me when he does that because that just creeps me out. I wish I could confront him about this but I dont want to talk about that kind stuff with him.
Don't you ever feel like there's so much going on around you that you feel smothered and just want to get up and walk away the instant you start feeling this way? I know i do. i want to drop everything and take a time out before i explode. i'm not the type of person who gets frustrated very easily and i'm not known for being an angry person either. But, today was one of those odd days where everyone and everything was getting under my skin. i'm not P.M.S-ing nor is it that time of month for me, it's just a weird day full of stupid encounters. my patience has been pushed over and i've just had it up to the point of no return. i don't like having to express this but, venting has helped me blow off some steam. Thanks for listening to whoever has had a day like this.
Has it ever happened to you, u have a crush on a guy and your best friend knows about it, and she starts flurting with him, supostly her, she don't realize it. Well it happened to me, i told my best friend about a guy i liked, but he didn't know,and the next day she was all over him, to make it worse he started flurting with her to, and she knew it made me mad, because the guy didn't even look at me cuz now my best friend was all over him, he even touched her body. Like a year later somehow he found out what my feelings were for him, and he started flurting even more with my best friend, that made me feel like crab, i remember i would cry everyday. I confronted my "friend" about the situation, and all she said was that she was just playing with him, and that she wouldn't do it again. That didn't happen. It's been two years since that happened. I am way more happy now that i don't like him and i see my "friend"(we are still friends)looking like a fool flurting with him thinking that i still like him, Now if i like a guy i never tell her.
On January 1, 2002 was the worst day in my life. Why because my mom had passed away.My mom had just fought Breast Cancer then Komen Therapy. I would always remember seeing my mom in the hospital bed then I would cry a lot. My mom had passed away about 10 or 15 minutes after midnight. While everybody else was partying,well I don't celebrate New Year's any so I went to bed.Well my dad was trying to call me so I can help him save my mother, well I couldn't hear him because of my neighbors playing with firecrackers. But,after I heard the ambulance I woke up to see what's going on they were coming to my house. So the ambulance took my mother so my dad was driving me to hospital. After we got their the doctors wouldn't tell me what happen to my mother, but about a hour later the doctor told me and my father that my mom passed away from a heart attack. When I got the news I thought it was all a dream,but I realize it wasn't a dream I was still up. So I kept crying and crying I would keep asking myself why me what did I do to deserve this. I would keep asking God why why are you doing this to me. My mom meant so much to me she would be their from the good times through the bad. So when I went home I couldn't sleep I would just keep crying and crying. Then all of the sudden I will try to kill myself, luck I had family & friends to stop me for doing that. I even had problems with school I wasn't passing my college courses I just had a hard time studying.
About that time I thought about quiting college I just wasn't into especially after my mom died. Now it has been five years now I can't believe it's been that long I still go to the cementary when I am not working. But, I was blessed to had my mother for 19 years some didn't even have their mother when they were borning. The most I was glad to have my mom see is my high school graduation. But, what I am trying to say is that we all think that are parents are strange, but you got to realizes that they're not going to be their for ever so appreciated while their still here.
I don't know what I am doing wrong but I am just a shy guy that is always nervous to talk to girls and my tell me all the time to go talk to that girl that just looked at you and I am like I can't I am to nervous. So should I just quit now our grow some balls.
why do you do it>?? why do you play with my emotions and my head? are you really that cold that you don't care that i cry myself to sleep beacuse of you most nights? or do you just not actually realize how much you hurt me? i want you to like me and i'm bending over backwards to make you happy, but do you not care? what have i done that i'm so unattractive to you?
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