I'm very depressed and the only thing that makes me feel better is marijuana. The fact that I rely on marijuana to fill my voids only makes me more depressed.
I want to get better, but I don't know how.
My best friend bought me a vibrator and I have no idea how to masturbate with it (I have never masturbated at all, really). I can't think of anything that gets me aroused... How do you guys do it every day?
I'm a white girl who is absolutely crazy about asian guys. Even the worst looking asian guys are somehow attractive to me, and it takes so much for a white guy to catch my eye. I've even thought to myself that I could never be happy with a white guy, no matter how great he was.
I'm also really shallow, and can't stand guys that are even a little fat. I prefer skinny, and anything falling into overweight or worse totally turns my stomach. At the same time, I hate guys who ask their girlfriends to lose weight when they get fat. I think they're assholes, even though I'd feel the same way if I were them.
Mmmm...This is going to be interesting and pretty sad all at the same time. I was born in 1986, to a 15 year old mom and a 17 year old dad (i was thier second child...the first died.) Anywhos, a year and a week later, my lil brother was born so my dad went into the military. We went to go live with my nanna (my dad's mom) becuz my mom was a slacker, and a whore and all that good stuff. So I was raised by her and that was fun..i guess. I learned a few things...I had a friend who would always finger me while we was in the car with my parents...until i was 7 and my dad called while in Hawaii and said he was getting married...and that we were going to go live with him in Hawaii. So I lived in Hawaii for awhile when I was little. That was fun...I had a best friend who was a girl and we would have sleepovers and just finger each other and stuff. Also, while in Hawaii...my dad and step mom had two girls so now there was four kids...I collected frogs and surfed and all things little children do. Finally, my dad got restationed to Illinois so I went to go live in a naval base which was awesome. I learned to lie, about cops, that you dont want to play hide and seek with older guys (its not the same), that you have to like basketball and be able to play. All of this was fun and when I was about 12, my dad sent me to virgina so that I could go see my mom. I spent a summer with her...I got fingered by the neighborhood boys all the time, had a boyfriend who later cheated on me so I seduced and slept with his best friend. It was a pretty eventful summer I think. Then I went back home, got baptized and became mormon. My dad got out of the military and we moved to Arizona when i was in 8th grade which was great becuz everyone knew at school that I was mormon so I didnt get any crap or anything. So finally went to high school...had awesome friends...graduated and then all the crap happened..LOL...Um..I met my weakness. No, just one person that no matter what I can't say no to and WANT so bad. Like I'm willing to throw everything away just for one go at him..which isnt good at all but whatever. So, met him...so far i've been pretty good about not being tempted. Then in June 2005, my dad died and after that I was pretty done so yeah. I've got one piercing...I want more...I'm getting two tattoos in december...one on my lower back and another on my shoulder blade. I'm doing what I want and not really thinking about anything else...I've started drinking...but only on occassion. Overall My life has been pretty simple...at least i like to think so...:)
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