I have a boyfriend, his name is steve. I love him alot, but all i can think of is breakng up, whenever i see him or talk to him, i get nervous. He loves me alot, he said he never loved anybody this much b4. I used to be obsessed with him. But i lost it now. he wants me to get it back. and he also said that he wants me to love him again. I wish i can to. I don't know what to do anymore. I always make him upset more than i do happy. I don't want to loose him either. Some times he makes me mad. He gets annoying sometimes. I need help. Thanks to who ever reads this.
okay so i went out w/this guy for a year & 8 months. & we broke up back in june.which is now 7 months ago & still i cant let him go. he was a very important part of my life, & my very first. i've talked to other guys and tried to find another one, still cant let go. Hes always surrounded by girls & there seems to be lots who like him. Recently he got a car and moved into a new house w/just his mom. she works all week & is gone except on weekends so during xmas break we ended up hanging out a lot. i would go over 2 his house & we would hang out all day. i began having problems @ home & i told him that my life was complicated my parents seemed like they were gona go through a divorce & we were just hangin out 4 fun so i thought we shouldnt hang out any more.. but he said he wanted to help & wanted to be there for me seeing as i was there for him when his parents went through the divorce. eventually i gave in to his request of having sex again becuase i felt that he was commited & he promised he wouldnt b talkin 2 any other girls. but then school started and he started not calling & stuff..said he was too busy...& well at one point i began to get clingy but i stopped...& then he did some messed up things (like dissing me) regardless of me trying to help him out w/some issues like school work & such. & now hes basically ignoring me & i feel like such an idiot...i wana know why just for myself...but @ the same time i dont wana seem like im begging to see how i can fix it or anything. & yet i feel like i need him 2 help me through this hard time... damn i am lost...any help?
This particular Saturday night began the way every other Saturday night.....hanging with the crew(7 girls and me (the only guy)) shots and drinks before going out to the bars...Everyone gets the bar and we are all having a great time hanging out, dancing, and drinking more.....After a while most of the group has left except for one chic and I....My buzz begins to where off, so I think, so I ask if Sara would like to take a shot with me....after much deliberation (ha ha) agrees and we go to the bar and both do shots of jager and I order a red bull and vodka for myself.....Time goes by and I buy her more shots/drinks and the bar closes and we are both hammered....I tell her I will walk her home....We get to her place and she invites me in and Sara makes grilled cheese (one of the greatest foods to have at 2 in the morning when you are wasted) After eating I tell her that Im going home and she says Im too drunk and tells me to stay at her place....To my joy I am weighing the pros and cons since I have known her for a while and know she is rather "friendly" with many guys....combined with the fact that I have had chlamydia, so I know the pain that is incurred when having such STDs....I agree to stay and we go in her room and things start to happen and I start kissing her entire body and she seems like she is into it.....I begin to notice that she isnt moving her legs anymore.....I figure she just felt like stopping, but soon I realize that I have gotten her too drunk and is passed out in her bed!!!! WTF???? I ponder if I should wake her up or just go home.....I decide that I have had enough and gather my stuff and go home by myself.....I haven't seen her since and I am deciding whether I should ask if she remembers it anyways.....
I have this huge confession that no one knows. Here it is... I'm married, have a daughter. Yet i still can't get this guy i met ,like years ago out of my head. So i find him on myspace, and contacted him. I have fantasies about the times we did have sex and think he is the one i was suppose to spend the rest of my life with, but i never had the guts to tell him, when i had the chance. I have feelings for him i don't have about my husband. I picture him having sex with me all the time. He is the most gorgeous guy i have ever met. So I let him know how I have felt for the past 11 years. Now i feel like a complete dumb *** and embarrassed about the whole thing. The scary thing is... if he would by some chance ask me to leave my husband for him i would. Ridiculous huh, and my husband is not perfect, but he is a good person. I think i am a horrible person, but how can i help how my heart feels about someone else.
When I was young, I had an older cousin who, on a Thanksgiving when we had all the family together, had me alone in my parent's basement. We are both male. He pulled his pants down to around his knees and made me masturbate him. He showed me several different ways and had me tickling the underside of his balls. When he got close to shooting his load, he grabbed me by the back of my head and started mouth ******* me. I was choking and trying to pull back, but he kept thrusting his hips, shoving his big shaft to the back of my mouth. When he shot his load, I think it came out my nose and was running down my chin. He made me lick every last drop from his rod. He told me that this had to be our secret and I never told anyone. When I became a teenager, I started making my little brother jack me off and suck me off. I would sit on the toilet stool and have him kneel in front of me. I did the same thing that my cousin did to me, grabbing him by the back of the head and mouth ******* him, coming as far into his mouth as I could. We get along good these days, never talking about what went on when we were younger. I wonder to myself if he even remembers what happened.
For the last year and a half , i have been sleeping with a married man. what makes it so bad is that him and his wife comes to my house everyday. we have little parties to our house like every night and he's a friend of my step fathers so he comes along with his wife. he gave me signs across the room with his tongue and i feel for him, so he asked to see my phone and he sneaked my number in his phone real slick and we both have nextel phones, so while their in the livin room, he'll call me while im in my room, and tell me to go out the door and walk down the road, ill go out and hell leave 10 minutes behind me and pick me up, and we go make love, and im scared because i think that my feelings have got to caught up over him, i know it sounds bad but i love him. His wife has NO idea, and i want to keep it that way. So, he is in jail now, and he put me on his visiting list and told me her work schedule so i wouldnt bump into her, i put money in his canteen, accepted his phone calls and sometimes called his wife on three way for him,he tells me he loves me and everthing and im starting to believe it, cause i really do love that man, he treats me so good and he shows me that he cares, its not like we creepin everywhere, we actually go and do thing together like a couple and thats why im kinda surprised that his wife doesnt know, not saying thta i want her to, but that is my confessions, i told no one but you and thatas the way its going to stay
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