I want to be the a successful actress, it's all I ever loved to do and had a passion for. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year now and I haven't acted the whole time because he's afraid I'll have to kiss someone. I moved out to the place where I most wanted to be in the world and the best place you can live for pursuing acting, but it was because my boyfriend wanted me to live with him. He can't have things any other way than how he wants them to be. I'm angry, confused, frustrated and sad. I fantasize about leaving and about living this wonderfully successful life but I can't ever get the courage up to explain myself or take the time to make him understand. I've been fully supportive of him in everything he's done even when he didn't like it. So he's scared, and jealous, but why does that mean I have to give up my dreams and hopes, and my happiness? Why can't I have the thing I've wanted most in life? Do I deserve to be unhappy? I love him and he's the most wonderful person I've ever met except for this one thing. But this one thing is what's killing it all for me. I feel myself losing faith, hope and strength every day. I settle more and more each day and struggle less and less against it. I'm scared of what my life is turning into just because of one person, who says he loves me but won't give my happiness a chance...
I am 15 and I recently met this one guy through a mutual friend(mutual friend we'll call Jeff and the guy we will name chris). Amd Jeff's gf is my best friend. Her "name" is Laura. Now Chris and I only met and talked for a toal of about a minute and then we talked online every once and a while. I really grew to like him. He lives about 30-45 min. away from me, but he tried to commute when he could. He came to one of my school producitons and gave me a rose afterwards(i was only a chorus girl). And then Jeff and Chris came to see a movie with mne. Chris payed for us and we flirted a little during the movie but according to Jeff Chris and I were really quiet. Chris can be a little shy sometimes but...I still found him really cool. I got excited and happy when I thought about him and we go to different schools so I would miss him all week. But we have SO much in common. And I have always said whenI found a guy that was my type, I would know...but I couldnt give a stereotype. And he is a guy who is my type. We like reading, we like music (alot of the same kind), and we both have had really crappy love lives. And all the while Jeff would relate to me what Chris was saying and doing. He has said that (again, according to Jeff) that he really likes me alot and he thinks im cute and fun.
I could see me with him. All the guys I have liked I cant imagine myself with even though I like them alot.With Chris I could. But lately it seems as if he doesnt want to talk to me anymore. I dont know why...and i kinda got a little sad that he was taking someone to his junior prom (oh yeah he is 17), but the fact is we go to different schools. Alot of people would say I am immature b/c I got upset about something so little or that I am over-analyzing it, but to me it just means that I like him ALOT. I wish there was some way for me to tell him, without scaring him off or making him think I am obsessed. I guess I just want this to work out really bad.
I was dating this guy that I thought was really cool until we stopped seeing each other and he turned into a big baby. I got a call later on from his best friend and I told him what had happened and we agreed I'd come over to hang out after I got off work. I had only been seeing his friend a week so I didn't think that it would be a big deal if anything happened between us. I didn't even think he'd go for a me because he's so gorgeous and amazingly sweet. But apparently he was secretly wishing that I was with him instead of his best friend. That night we drank a few beers and one thing led to another and we had sex. The next four days and nights I lived with him and ever since I've been basically living with him 5 out of 7 days a week. Sometimes 6 days. We're now boyfriend and girlfriend, which is completely amazing. He's the best boyfriend I've ever had and I'm completely in love with him. We have been going out for 3 weeks and have already agreed we are getting an apartment together and that our relationship is the best we've ever had. My ex fiance has recently made an appearance in my life again which is nice but stirs up old memories and feelings I don't want back. My ex fiance's best friend has been trying to get me to cheat on my boyfriend and I told him that things have changed, I won't do that to my boyfriend. I had my doubts about my ex and thats why I didn't see a problem with being with his best friend. But I have no doubts that my present boyfriend is "the one". He's been married and divorced but says he never had such an amazing relationship and has a strong gut feeling about us. We've both told each other we love you but we were drunk and when I told him what happened because I remember he said, "I meant it" he just doesn't wanna go around saying it all the time because we need to get to know more about each other before taking that next step. Meanwhile I'm living with him and having the most amazing sex with the most gorgeous and amazing man I've ever met. I love him.
I am a 21 year old female named Lauren and I want to say ...
I'm an 18 year old bisexual girl. Any gay haters, please just don't comment, because I don't wanna open up that can of worms. Anyhow, I began a relationship with a girl at my all-girls school a few years ago, and we were together for two years. We'd go to the bathroom to makeout, and we hid our relationship from everyone. Eventually, we had a mutual breakup when she began to incessantly tell me that I was a horrible person and no one would ever care about me. I suggested that we break up if she felt that way, and she agreed to it. It hurt really bad, but I couldn't tell anyone because they all thought I was straight. However, after we broke up, we were still close friends. She seemed to forget about me, and I wanted her back (she knew it). I tried not to give in, because I knew that she would only hurt me. She kept on talking about guys she was crushing over, and she'd lay her head in my lap, just talking about how much she wanted him. It was torture. Eventually, I tried to put it out of my mind and got my own boyfriend. I cared for him too, but he cheated on me and dumped me. Then, for some reason, my old girlfriend wanted to get back together with me again. By then, I knew that I couldn't trust her. I turned her down, and to make me jealous she got together with my old boyfriend who cheated on me. My last words to them were (and they fully believed that I was serious) "You guys deserve each other." Love just isn't worth the trouble, is it?
This concerns monogamy and to a greater extent, loyalty between partners and friends. I have one really good friend, he's me oldest mate and we've known each other so long it's become as if were were blood relatives. A while ago he and his girl moved away for a job but it didnt work out for both, so he moved back here cut about the job he'd missed and also a bit depressed about his relationship with xx being over. Needless to say he was back on his feet again and hitting the dating scene. Now some guys don't like it, but I was secretly glad when he started dating a female friend of mine. I knew he was the dependable kind and i figured we'd all be hanging out and having fun...well so i thought.They had been serious for about 8 months and I had noticed she was acting different around me, i picked up a vibe from her that said she couldn't talk like we used to (the nitty-gritty stuff), even though i hadn't betrayed any trust or told my friend any thing bad about her. Then at a party i threw to which she couldn't be at, my oldest mate cheated on her. He was very discreet about it but it was at my house and I was being the responsible host and staying relatively in control to look after the gang. Any other party and i'm usually off my face so i was lucky that i saw anything at all but I did, and i made sure that i didnt misenterpret it.
I never told her, trusting that he would wake up to himself and they would sort it out between the two. IE; He tells, she bashes him for a bit, he breaks down and cries, they re-enforce their spiritual connection and have some mindblowing makeup sex.
I had forgotton about the whole thing, when I saw him do it again, not so subtlely while we were out taking pills. -This time he was relying on me to keep it quiet and we spoke about it briefly, using the drugs as his excuse; "You know its just the drugs, you know what it like,..." I didnt say anything then and I still didn't when I found out he did it again. I hit him up quietly, almost jokingly, and told him to knock it off and all I got back was resentment. It's a very munted situation and no matter what I choose to do I feel like im risking a friendship, just for involving myself. Both mean a great deal to me, but this conundrum has stirred up too much trouble looks like it won't resolve itself anytime soon.
Just what the fudge do I do now?
im 16, never had a boyfriend because im too cold in the heart!
i let my boyfriend in and we just split up and within a day he has moved on and has found himself another girlfriend, who happens to be one of my mates!! im so angry and hurt! i finilly open up my heart and it gets hurt!
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