I have been unfaithful almost all of my married life..but its just sex i love my husband..I have 1 child in my marriage that is not his..I have never told him and never plan to..I hate all that i have done because he is the most awsome guy i know but i cant seem to stop...i want to but i cant
First of all, I am shocked that no one even responded to your entry. I am not hear to tell you that it's all going to be ok, because who really has any right to tell you that. What I am going to tell you is that I, in many ways, relate to what you wrote. When I was about 15 years old I didn't think anything was worth a damn. I was miserable. I hated my father. He cheated on my mom and made her so upset that she walked around making our lives miserable. She was very controling and that made it even worse. I tried taking a bottle of sleeping pills. I thought of jumping in front of a moving car.
Anyway, I look back now and I am so grateful to god or whatever kept me from succeding in ending my life. I am now 28, married and about to have a child of my own (my first one). I would have missed all of these things. I would have missed my 21st birthday (I could have lived without the puking and the hang-over), College graduation...everything! Things can get better, it just takes a much stronger person to pull through them, then it does just to say screw it and give up. You seem like you have a strong personality (so do I) and I am sure that like me you can find strength somewhere inside of yourself. Go easy on yourself, and remember that we are our own worst enemy.
I am 18 years old, and am very bi. Very bi meaning, there aren't a lot of guys that I really like. Women are much more attractive ;) Anyways, Just a couple months ago, I met this girl from work, I was attracted the first time I saw her. She has the most amazing eyes, lips, just everything!
Anyways, I was still going through confusion of whether I was bi or not, and it was killing me that I had feelings for her.
We had worked with each other only twice, and I hadn't really had extreme feelings for her, but then one day we were able to work a whole day shift together. Just the two of us. Since I was attracted, I couldn't help but want so badly to be her friend. I usually don't open up to anyone that quickly. I found out that she's hilarious, and that was even more attractive.
Well, anyways, after that I called her, and somehow we became instant friends, it was amazing. Since that day, there has not been ONE day that has gone by that we haven't seen each other, talked over the phone or at least emailed each other.
So as time went on I started feeling for her more and more, I couldn't help it! I was so confused and just wanted her so bad. I had a friend who told me to tell her, so I did. I was surprised at her reaction because she had mentioned before that she didn't support gay, lesbian, bi. I just told her that I thought I was bi and she helped me by saying that lots of people stuggle with that, even herself. So as a little time went on, both of us felt it was wrong to like each other but we did anyways, and then I told her how I really felt, she said she felt the same. So we had intense and immense feelings for each other, but we didn't want to get ourselves in trouble. We hung out everyday and couldn't "do anything" with each other. We were doing a really good job at controlling, until one day I slept at her house. . .it was a very nice night!
We were cuddling in bed (oh yeah, we have always cuddled!), she bit my eyebrow, mmm, it felt so good! (Biting is hot by the way), our eyes met, a little hesitant at first, then BAM! Our lips locked and I never wanted to let go! We made out the whole night until 5 in the morning. . .I won't go into much detail, but it was intense.
We have noe been together for about 2 and a halfish months, and have known each other for about 5 months. I am SO happy being with her, but we both have religion that gets in the way of our relationship. We have to hide it from practically everyone we know. Only a FEW people know about us.
Our parents have almost caught us a million times, I HATE that I can't be with her without some sort of stupid drama from other people.
I am in love and others don't care!
One time, i was playing paintball. I was the last guy on my team, then this one guy bunker knocks me. It ws my first game so I turned, shot missed hime, and hit the ref.
I should start by saying that I am a heterosexual female. I went out with friends one night, and ended up drinking WAY too much. I got seperated from my friends and this very nice girl took me back to her place, concerned with my drunkenness. I ended up having sex with her, after she told me repeatedly that she had never done this before. I had never either, but I was surprisingly domineering. I never saw her again, and am still heterosexual. Just one drunken night...
Basically when I was in middle school I was a bit of a chubbier kid. But when the summer of eighth grade rolled around, I got out and lost some weight. Well during the whole thing, there was this guy i was just crazy about. Now, in highschool, as i walk down the halls i get the occasional whistle or random compliment. I have a seat REALLY close to him in english...and I just love to watch him squirm because of the mistake he made...
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