I am a 21 year old male with the username Samason and I want to say ...
Leader
Dancing in the twilight with the shadows of existence,
Singing a song of melody for mortals,
Let us all walk hand in hand with no resistance,
Draw out the path to open the gates and portals.
Gather together once again and find serenity,
Huddle around the fire chanting sound and thought,
Stand upright and understand the meaning of tranquility,
Go on and run in the night and never get caught.
how would it feel?
to touch your skin
your hands? grand i bet
your face? id be lost in space
your lips? that would be the ultimate it
but.. theres always a but
if i were to
society labels me the slut of the year
tears inside i hold because i wonder what if?
still young and curious
still frontin like im serious...
if only i could stand tall and make my life my all
then all these ? would be answered
i think of you, day dream of you, curious of you
but who are you? really
are you the sweetness you present?
the humor that attracts me to your scent... this attraction is such an accident?
one day maybe... if not then forever i will be in the shady... dark with no light to spark and read what was written for me and you...
deep in some part of this heart
holds a sweet place for you
and if it always remains true....
Mr. sensitive
Did I hurt your feelings?
Is that you I hear crying?
Are those tears I see falling?
whats up with all name calling
Now you aint going to answer your phone
and when I come to visit you'll get someone to tell me your gone
When you go online you'll sign in as invisible
Why make yourself miserable?
You tell all your friends what an insenistive person I am
It aint my fault that I have a very sensitive man.
I know my words are too strong at times but I mean no harm.
Sure I'm strong enough for the both of us but that does mean I should take all the blame.
Boy have you loss your mind? Have you gone insane?
I've been real with you since the very first day.
Sure the truth can be brutal at times but its the pain that lets us know we are still alive.
You ask and I tell you the truth I have not yet lied to you.
At times the things you say and do make me want to beat the **** out of you.
But I dont and do you know why?
Although we have are differences your still my boy, my crossdresser, bitchy, moody, sensitive, submissive,jealous guy.
P.S.
"I dont care about what anyone thinks, who are they to forbid us from seeing each other"
My first kiss was... Amazing. I was 13 at the momet it first happened. My current boyfriend at the time was Jordan. He just perfect. I really thought it was love... but I was 13 apperantly I didn't know what "love" was. Before the big event, we were writing notes in class and he gave me a not. It said, "Would you kiss someone at school?" I replied of course. Then I asked back if he would. Of course he said yea. After all this I waited for 2 weeks! Which seems like forever since I was expecting something out of him! Finally, I wrote him a not asking why he asked me that. He said, "I asked that because I wanted to kiss you." Then I replied then why didn't you? He told me it was because he didn't think that I was serious, I told him I was and he said that he would meet me in the hall after everyone left and we could kiss there. I was so nervous! We were in the hall hiding from all the teachers. Then he looked me in the eyes and he kissed me for what seemed like an eternity. After the big kiss he hugged me like never before. When people told me that the first kiss is magical, I didn't believe it. Now I do. About 3 months later, he broke my heart for another girl. Kayla. To this day... I will never forget that kiss, and I will always deep in my heart love him. Even though he doesn't love me.
A fading light as my blood pores out, I try to see through my doubt.
Once my words had been a lamp, Now they are nothing but a clamp.
I fight to see everything in me, But all I manage is a dead withering tree.
I wonder is this the end? Or is there something worth it around the bend.
I take this blade hand in hand, Thrust it deep and let fall the sand.
I sit and ponder, will this sleep be black and somber?
In this I beg and ask, Let me fall into the past.
Let my memories die in vain, Let me bask in this pain.
Please just stand by as I fade and die, Let not loose the tear from your eye.
I am not worth the air that I breathe, So I seize and give a final heave.
My heart stops it beat, And I loose all my heat.
Cover me over now, As I asked and told you how.
Please do not weep, Just put me in a place to sleep.
Forget about what I am, For I should never have been known as Sam.
As my body withers away, You should not have to pray.
Give me no grave mark, Just hide me neath some bark.
Even if you cry, My bones will still just lie.
If you howl and whine, My blood might curdle into a wine.
But I ask walk away, For I am no longer here to play.
im only 19 and i REALLY do want life to end. but ive always despised the selfishness of suicide because of the grief it causes others. i dont think i will kill myself because ive felt this way for a while
ive had unexplained severe depression problems since i was in primary school.
i was in insanely in love with a girl for 3 years (and cried regularly for) before we had a very intense 9 month relationship. that ended 3 years ago and ive had no one since.
i dont love her anymore as weve hardly spoken since then, but i STILL think about her EVERY SINGLE day as it was the only love ive had.
i frequently cry alone in my room for hours. when i have the house to myself and my parents are out i smash things up and scream.
i never told anybody about it and this is the first time ive let it out of my head.
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