I am obsessed with music. It is my life and not a lot of people understand this. They think I am just obsessed, but it is so much more than that. It is absolutely incredible :D I am bored here, sorry.
The past is done but it remains a painful memory, Haunting me through my dreams.
My cry for help, the blood curdling screams....Bringing me back to the very night he had raped me. Searching for some peace in mind, But, the pain this memory brings makes it had to find. Unable to speak, Keeping the pain hidden inside, This memory keeps the pain alive. I can't seem to control my tears, My freedom torn apart, Leaving a sense of fear. Praying to God every single night, Hoping for things just to be alright. Trying to accept this as apart of my life, Fighting for the justice, To makes this right. Because I want to sleep with ease, At the end of the night. All the stress this raped has caused, Put the present at a sudden pause. Disillusioned, Full of Confusion, This is the final conclusion. There’s no stepping back, What happen has happened, it’s a clarified fact.
As I walk I feel your steps behind my pedestrian ways smell your scent feel your heart beat while I stroll in the sunlight that which couldn't challenge your beauty too far fo me too touch but just close enough fo me too know your there two paces behind me creatin a stalkin fear I love you dearly baby I’m so delighted your near
Dear father I shall confess my sins
The words I say tonight come deep from with in
I must tell thee I don’t believe any more
Its time for me to give up and to close this door
You have infected my sole
let the darkness swallow me whole
I’m turning by going to the dark side
Its some were I can turn to help me die
They make out you are all mighty and great
But all I feel for you all mighty is anger and hate
If you are here and you are real
Then tell me why is it pain I feel
Surrounding me with broken walls
Anywhere and every were I go I seem to fall
I’m sorry for the words I say on this night
But what I am doing and saying I feel is right
My arms that are blood covered in slits
Will scare for the rest of time on my wrists
Why did this happen if you’re the best
Why wont you give me a life a let me rest
So dear father I shall confess my sins
The words I say tonight come deep from with in
I have crossed over never to come back
I am so fucked up I have lost track
Of what’s wrong and what right
Dear father I have confessed my sins for the night
what this poem meens is iv made so many mistakes and god never helped me so i have lost faith in him.
iv just had a f**ked up life with no one to turn to
If your born to die,then you die to be born.
and you get to be from your mother torn,
then she gives you a name,
and the rules to the game,
but every lifetime is never the same.
if there's a bottomless pit and a pool of flames
ita our galaxy falling through space.
so time is the fire in which burns the intire human race.
your life is a gift from the cosmos and everybody should learn.
that what you do with your own life is your gift in return.
with love to all the lost souls....phildo
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