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i've been with my bf for the past year. I moved in with him in july, but our relationship has always been kind of rocky. I know that i care about him, and i know he loves me, we've been through it all and back, but sometimes, i find myself wondering if im even in love with him anymore. I want to move out, and eventually break up, but then, when i go home every night and he's there pulling me to him, looking into my heart and telling me how much he loves me, how much i mean to him, and how he wants to be with me forever. Im only 20, and im a realist too. i know that at 20, this isnt a "forever" thing (at least i hope not) -- but im torn becuase he's my first love, and i've seriously gone thru hell and high water with and for him.

i dont know how to leave him without him freakin out and trying to make it impossible to leave -- bcuz i've tried, but then i always come back because 1) he's the only one i've been with for a long time 2)i live with him 3) sometimes, i just think what it'd be like without him and i just get heartsick that i wouldn't be waking up in his arms anymore and 4) He truly makes me feel like he wouldn't b doing so well in his life without me there.

just like every couple we have our ups and downs. But, we're so much alike, its getting to be irritating. lately when we argue, i just find myself giving up, and thinking of those days when i was single and didnt have no man to take care of. I'm comtemplating having an affair (since im practically married) --but its not really in my character to cheat on someone i love. id rather break up first--- i just dont know How to do it, or even If thats what i really want.

i guess im just confused, --i love him so much, we almost had a baby, and i take care of him like he's my husband... im just... argh! smothered i think. its my first bf/gf relationship, and its just really intense. eh, im not really looking for advice, just venting. WHy ArE ReLaTioNsHiPS sUmWaT a StRuGGLe 2 MaIntAiN?!

now that we live together, its like BAM! "oh, right, this is who i AM" --and i wonder if we only stay together because its habit, its routine, its comfortable, its something we're used to.... He knows me so well, he can deal with my little "temperments" and i can read him like a book as well. i know we still love each other, sometimes i feel that we just fell in love too quick,

so my main question is... should a couple stay together if they have to work extra hard to maintain it???....what happens when the honeymoon is over..?

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Anonymous Coward says ...
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Look quit waisting his & your time. Love is a gift, sometimes we're ready to receive it other times we are not. It comes in seasons, and it sounds like the season of summer has passed and your still wearing your bikini in the dead of winter and freezing your toosh off. Let it go! You are not only preventing him from meeting the person he suppose to meet but you too! It hurts to grow and let go, because that means you mite have to stand alone and take responsiblity for your own life. It's weird at first, not asking to ask some one else about what they think about what you shoud do with your life, BUT you can do! Salvage what you can of this great friendship before it's to late.

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my 1st name is mike, i know what you're going thru and i can understand your problem, i used to think i too was trapped in a similar relationship but i realized one day that by staying when you feel smothered only destroys the whole thing, so i set my girlfriend down , we talked it thru and we came to the conclusion that even though we loved each other it was better to part as friends and if we were meant to be together then we would get back together and then we knew for sure where we as a couple stood, it hurts bad but unfortunately it's necessary, so if you love him so much, talk to him and then follow your instincts, don't let him influence your decision, it's your life too, thru this experience i wound up being happier in the long run, but i took control of my own life and grew from it, but it is'nt easy.

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Whew.. my first thoughts was stay together.. If you guys love each other so much.. and if ur just having arguments every other day.. It isnt all that bad.. Go ask a couple that hass REALLY gone thorugh hell and high water.. and what I mean by that is a couple who is married for 50 years. You are gonna have arguments.. Thats what comes with the word "Love". Why would you want to leave someone you love and care about so much? The only reason is if your not in love.. So then I read mikes "above" reasoning. And thats sounds like the best thing to do. Just remember to think it over.. Especially with him.. Come to a conclusion between the 2 of you.. not the millions of us :) You owe it to him to have his 2 cents involved. Maybe after it comes this close to loose each other.. you will finally see you were meant to be. :) good luck sweetie..

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I went through a similar situation. I was with my ex for 3 years. We broke up a few times over the years because I wasnt sure what I wanted. I knew I cared for him and thought I wanted to be with him. But I felt like I was staying with him because I was afraid of how he would be if we werent together. Finally I left him and almost 8 months later I am so glad I did. We are still friends but we'll never be in a relationship again. I was 16 when I met him and am now 20 so I know how you feel being young. Just do what you want to do. Talk with him. It will all work out. I read a book called "The Five Love Languages" by Gary Chapman. It helps you understand relationships better. Best of luck to you!

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If you don't want to be with him, then don't be. Don't lead him on anymore. But be honest about the situation. Don't lie to yourself or him. Tell him how you feel and why. And once again, don't let him persuade your decision because it's not going to change how you feel deep down inside. And last but not least, beings how I am a guy myself, don't put the poor man on a guilt trip.

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ive realized that when two people want to be together, the obstacles and challenges they face dont even come close to the love and compassion btwn them. Thats how i feel about him, i gave it a couple weeks to think about it n figure it out...and i've realized that im so much in love with him, that it tweaks me out, which is y i get alittle commitment anxiety, but he loves me so deep! my eyes have been opened, and im gonna stick it thru!
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